Dangerous effects after Yoga or Reiki, affecting my Empathy ?

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Kate
@kate
4 years ago
131 posts

Ok guys, thankyou very much for your last responses in the other topic :D. Now, i don't know if this is the reason for my latest anxiety and irrational fears problems, but yesterday I went to my first Reiki course, and even though it was very strange, I got a few points... now the thing is that I think I may have damaged myself after incorrect Yoga practice at home, using only my knowledge from what I've read and those guided meditation videos available on Youtube.

I think my poses were wrong or something. I mean, for a while I've been having these emotional imbalances, panic attacks(small, but huh, I guess they were...) and anxiety and irrational fears. I've never been so mentally unbalanced and this is new and exceptionally strange, for both me and my relatives/parents who are really worried.

What do you say, may this be an answer and how could I repair the damage if it's for real?

Also, although yesterday I was so happy about going to this Reiki course, today I feel very strange. Although I'm somewhat more relaxed, I actually remained with a feeling of separation. I can't feel the others anymore, not even my parents, and this thing scares the s**t out of me, because nobody told me such a feeling/state of mind could occure! My head (crown chakra I guess?) aches too (or I feel pressure, and loooooots of thoughts that I can't stop) whenever I try to relax. Also, I think I've slept for only 5 hours or so last night, and felt very strange whenever I would let my mind relax...

Is this normal? I mean, I usually felt connected to many people and friends and parents and brother, like I was bigger than my psychical body. But not sensing anything out of a sudden to me is pretty... horrible. Even though my stomach is better, I actually feel more introverted, cold and uncaring, like my chakras closed... and I feel so separated when walking on street. I don't like it. I got used to feeling everything, although lately I've been feeling powerless and without much essential energy. What could the explanation be? And yes, there was a guy who "cleaned my chakras", but I was told that the people in that room are actually good at what they do. May the feeling be coming from this? Is it ok? Should I be worried? Will it pass? I'm worried, I hope it's just a provisory state of mind... and my Empathy reactivates. Now I'm determined not to force myself or go deeper or wantto obtain more than what I am to be given...


updated by @kate: 05/16/17 05:41:49PM
Kate
@kate
4 years ago
131 posts

Yeah, yoga actually helped me too many times, but indeed, it is like Tony said: only when I proceeded to ground myself and send white light to the top of my head, and open my chakras... During the Reiki course however, I think the boy actually closed my lower chakras so I would be able to maintain my crown chakra open.

I also observed that it is extremely hard being grounded and at the same time having the third eye and crown chakra open... I don't think I analyze the situation 100% correct everytime, but I started to sense pretty well when and what is happening inside me. But right now I'm very off balance: until a few minutes ago my lower centers were closed but I observed that I would still get impression about others (I have just returned from town) in the form of sudden thoughts... but I was very dreamy too, and I found it hard to concentrate while listening to others.

Now I've done something and closed my crown chakra and I feel smaller, lol. And also there's a lot of pressure in my stomach. I don't know... I wonder if I'll ever be able to be balanced most of the time :D

btw: I did Karate for 2-3 years and felt wonderful every time after (well, apart from the tiredness). I think I will start it again, but I dunno...

Kate
@kate
4 years ago
131 posts

I understand... but the problem is that I know this feeling, and it is like before: I can't connect with others, I can't socialise at a normal level as I did. I just closed. I spent SO MUCH time developing this ability. It's so hard to even be happy right now. And the worst is that I can't "shut down" my head!!It's like a string is attached to the center of my head and taking away ALL my power!!! I can't shield, I can't sense, I can'y even live in the present I can only live inside my head... I can't relax, I feel heavy, my head hurts, it's so ANNOYING.

And more than anything, I'm extremely annoyed because it happened right after I came from that Reiki course. AND because I moved. I knew this would happen. I knew that I had to shut down my empathy tp "survive" so to say in this new class. But it really affects me and my relationships.

And what the hell, guuuys... a string attached to the center your head absorbing your empathy and unability to shut down your thoughts and relax that area of your head? what IS this? why do I feel it like this?

Kate
@kate
4 years ago
131 posts

You know Christy... under normal conditions, yeah, that's what I'd try to do.

And it generally worked for me.

But... oh... how should I put it... ever since i came from that Reiki course what I heard there pretty much obsesses me and I can barely stop the headaches. As I am writing here I feel horrible... ready to quarell with everyone. I just returned from town where I met with 2 of my best friends and I was kind of dizzy and couldn't put up a shield or make an aura around myself or do ANYTHING at ALL, not even SENSE. Not even A LITTLE. I kind of negatively affected them too... we weren't as enegetic as always, even sad and bored I would say. You know how frustrating this could be, you know, happening all of a sudden, becoming sad and disconnected, "coincidentaly" just after my first Reiki course? Unable to socialise under normal conditions? feeling like I caught a cold or something, sometimes starting shaking, being more tensed than ever?

I'm starting to wonder whenever this is good or bad, seriously, this doesn't feel good at all. I can barely concentrate too. I'm a little scared too, and I don't want to go to the next course. Now every time I try opening myself the image of the Reiki teacher telling me that I shouldn't play with such energies freely because "I break the rule" comes into my mind and I get a blockage AND a headache too. I'm so furious! My world just turned upside down.I spent so much developing my ability and now everything closed...

I don't want energy or thoughts to be forced into my head, neither I want to be manipulated or told what to do with my abilities, because I've always had good thoughts and intetions and ideals. I tried a few times an extremely good 12 D shielding technique I found on youtube, and it grounded/protected me for some time... but I can't keep my concentration forever, and if i think aboutsomething else even a little... BAM, the miraculous headache. I tell you... it's like I programmed myself to close and only let my head function. Like being trapped under some rocks with only your head out, able to see everything but unable to react.

I didn't like that reiki meeting at all: I perceived everyone to be really sad, and with so little confidence in themselves, like, extremely introverted. And the "coordonator" started to alk about things like the antichrist, equpiments that affect "our" power installed in town, and other things that pretty much scared me. It was better when I didn't know so much, and just knew how to work with myself to feel good... and I would start feeling happy again, and open, and that's all!

Now, not being able to control myself, I observed that I'm spreading both negative or positive vibes and I'm not even aware! My mother especially, who responds very quickly to my emotions and states got sick and is being really sad lately and unable to focus at work. I affected my father too, my aunts, my grandma... it just isn't right.

Now I really feel like I'm going crazy and I seriously think about telling my parents to give me a medication of some sort. I can't go on like that, I'll just destroy myself and the others around me.

Kate
@kate
4 years ago
131 posts

p.s. Feeling dog-tired at night and having no desire to wake up in the morning? It has never gotten that bad before. Like, seriously, a guy did a sign 3 times on my back after 'cleaning my chakras' and the coordinator didn't even explain anything!And I'm afraid these symptoms sound like "Energy Vampires" more than ever. My whole family is affected. Do you REALLY think this is a normal process?

I wanted to ask her a few questons at the end, but there were more people waiting and she visibly didn't want to tell me anything deeper than things like "bla bla your spirit is OK. You brother is a big spirit... you want to control everything too much" and ended the conversation without any clear explanation. I called her 3 times, she didn't even answer.

That Reiki thing weakened me too much and I've already been having a hard time managing my energies... i can't just relax. I really need a strong advice... but thank you all, nevertheless, for your time spent trying to help me. I really do appreciate.

Kate
@kate
4 years ago
131 posts

Am I allowed to make 3 posts in a row? I have so much to say and only 15 minutes of editing, oh ;))

You know what? After all, I started to think that 70% or even more of what is happening is just a pure biochemical mechanism, like when thinking "hey, I'm an energy vampire" it's more like a self-induced delusion, and when they believe in it strongly, their bodies release a wave of endorphins or something like that... similar to the way I started to blame others because of my lack of energy, but really, it's my thoughts I should work with. That wouldn't explain the premonitions though... lol. Well, I don't negate 100% the existance of some sort of energy, waved and mind tricks, but really...

Kate
@kate
4 years ago
131 posts

Thanks Christy!

Gosh, this is getting soo strange ;)) I wonder whenever it's allright to take this path so early, I mean, I'm only 17! I'm afraid of becoming a weirdo or something... an illuminated person that doesn't fit in the society? No, this isn't what I should do/what I want. I wish to integrate the the spiritual side in my daily life, if everything indeed proves to be real. I actually started to do it some time ago (a few months before I registered here), although I kind of lost control, becoming overwhelmed with fear and everything.

I really want to treat the situation from a more logical point of wiew.

Even if the people from that Reiki course were nice and wanted to be warm trully believed in their stuff, they were at the same time pressed by so many things, talking about such BIG things kind and striving to live a normal life in the society... I don't want to be like that. Like, the inadaptable of the society. I never was like that... I like people, be them "open" to such teachings or not, I want my career to have something to do with interacting with people and talking and organising. I don't like being in the spotlight but having a close position to that would more than definetly warm my heart :))

And I really wonder whenever this course would help me more than transform me in some kind of a weirdo.

I also did something today... I was so furious and tried to stop the headache and it eventually stopped, lol. I suddenly became more aware of my surroundings and atmosphere again and realised that my lower chakras opened again, while the crown chakra closed. You know, like, regaining my empathy. But there was fear again in my stomach, and after 2 days of calm sleep and no stomach aches, I kind of freaked out again, realising I made myself sensible to the environment again, and tried to "Reiki myself" as you mentioned. As I started to actually feel pressure again in my head, I think that my lower chakras started to close again... so here comes the question: are these idea/conclusions real/plausible from an experienced person's in such things point of view, or they aren't possible at all and there may be another explanation of my "feelings" ??

p.s: I'm so sorry, I'm writing so much in every post, like I'll never have the chance to do it again :)) But I just feel like expressing everything I'm going through...

Kate
@kate
4 years ago
131 posts

Ok, I'll make a note. I'd love to go to a yoga class too, just to experience the feeling :D I'll se what I can do...

Thanks.

Kate
@kate
4 years ago
131 posts

Allright... but there's one more thing... I had a lot of connections with others, teachers too, and they were really positive, and I could transmit positive energy and extract some too, without force or anything, it was like I understood them perfectly: it was the case of 4-5 teachers and some friends too... but since the attunement, it's like me and them, and especially some 2 other best friends, are not on the same frquency... we just don't understand each other like before. I mean, I think that *I* can't do it like before. And they kind of perceive my "isolation" from them so to say. And it hurts me knowing I can't connect to them and act accordingly.[one of them is a pretty sensible Cancer, who even if doesn't know anything about energies & co, is pretty much affected by this kind of things nontheless :D]

Indeed, these connections that I had with my old class too, wasted so much energy from my part. Maybe this is why I wanted to move back so much andhad this internal struggle for so many months, but they also kind of gave me strenght, I don't know how to describe it, because it was a mutual unspoken accord, I believe, of giving and receiving energy.

It is the same in the case of a friends who doesn't live in the city... it was like we could simply sense each other while talking, but of course, I never really thought that deeply about that until 5 days ago when I first realised that I've been disconected from her and we just talk and get bored! Or maybe it's just a state of mind and it isn't their fault but mine???

Another -simplier- problem: I must close my heart chakra so many times not to feel what shouldn't be felt that I'm starting to find it more and more difficult to open it again (having moved in a new class, with my freshly lost high postion that I got used to having and people NOT SENSIBLE at all to energies & stuff like in the previous one -well, with 4 exceptions- can get very much annoying) ... like seriously, I'm not as happy as before, my stomach is still "tight" but on a lesser extent and "my heart"... oooh, shit, why did I drag myself into this... now there are so many things to consider before making a decision, to learn, and everything by myself, only by experiencing and... well, suffering, although I like it better than being just another one walking on earth blindfolded!

What should I do about those connections that I can't feel anymore? Any good Reiki technique/thoughts for Heart& Stomach chakra opening?

Ecila
@ecila
4 years ago
898 posts

Im not really familiar with reiki but if you're convinced that this change occurred at the class, I'm wondering if there could have been some sort of "energy" that was not beneficial for you. I, personally, am not comfortable "opening up" around people I do not know. I prefer to do my "attunements" on my own. My suggestion would be to take a long bath (using epsom salts or protective herbs). Use one of the grounding exercises, and state that any non-beneficial energies that are attached to you must leave now...this can be elaborated on, ie, including your family or visualizing energies leaving... I know this might sound strange, but it can't hurt to try. If you believe in angels or guides you can ask them to help. Archangel Michael would be good for this.

Above all, don't get stressed. It will all be okay. You will learn from this. Take care of yourself.

Ecila
@ecila
4 years ago
898 posts

THanks for posting that article. It will take me a while to digest and understand all of it, but it gives a good description of meditation. The part about channeling lower astrals was what I was thinking about relevant to the question here. I was thinking of trying Reiki...but maybe not!

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