you realize that everything you saw and felt in some people ( on empathic and non empathic terms) is not real? Can you still consider yourself an empath? Or is it just a matter of bad reading and refusing to see the bad side of people that is staring you right in the face?
I have been very disappointed by "friends" and people I've known for years, all recently, all within this last year. And I'm talking radical changes in them, in their attitude, in everything they were before. Most recently was a guy who I've known for years who I always felt I had a strong bond with, who I loved and thought he did too, who I felt had a very good soul and...it turns out he's none of the things i thought he was, there were never any feelings at all and all of it was in my head. But I felt something in him, I saw his soul just lke I saw it in all of the others that changed in the last year.
So now I'm in a state of shock, not understanding what happened? not knowing what it was that I saw in those people, reconsidering my abilities in reading people, wondering if I'm an empath at all and even considering just being plain crazy.
I'm doubting God too as well, like I've never done before. I know it's not right to blame him but I can't understand why he didn;t warm me when I asked him for help and why he even pushed me to these people when I asked what to do. Why he said it would be ok and that I'm right in what I see. Maybe I was never "talking" to him...?
Please, if there's anyone that can explain this to me, or anyone that has gone through the same thing or similar...I would really appreciate some help. I'm at the bottom of the dark hole ( again!) and this time I'm wondering what , if any, is the point of coming out.
thanks for anyone who took the time to read!
updated by @lavinia: 01/14/17 07:38:13PM