I've noticed some funny thing going on with this year, which is like the polar opposite from the way things were last year. Last year i found myself stuck on an illusion of reality in a way which actually allows for easily healing. This year, however, I've noticed that it seems to get stuck in an unwanted energy state connected to another person. Whenever I think or text someone, i feel their presence inside me. Any Idea what's going on? Last year I didn't have this problem and it spiked up around February this year, But I noticed it less in Jan. But thinking back it was there. IT's a major pain because it's disruptive and toxic.
Some things I've tried:
Focusing harder on something besides it(trying to become totally absorbed into it where your aware of nothing else)
Trying to just make it stop through wishing it to stop(doesn't work)
Trying to focus on my own consciousness. (works a little bit) BREAK;
I can't seem to get back to a place where I'm connected to no one(almost like right now as I'm typing this, but not really cause I'm feeling what you are feeling in response to what your reading as I'm typing it. (really weird)..
I find the best thing to do is to focus on the color black inside of your mind. It has been the most helpful(like a super deep black which is blacker than black darkness).
What is your thinking as to how to deal with it?
Also I've suppressing my empathy lately to help deal with it.So I've been relying on manually healing stuff which is far less effective, mainly cause i'm trying not to hurt anyone. Also when i am connected I know not how to start healing without having an opposite effect on who I'm connected to which is the problem. I could heal just fine last year whilst connected to no one. Which was really nice not feeling constantly stressed about it. It was so great last year was! But i think it has to do with stress and is related to it. But even when I' m not stressed it's still there. But it becomes unbearable when I'm am stressed like in class.
updated by @guitarherogod47: 09/05/18 01:43:03PM