@Nea thanks for sharing. I think you are the only person who actually answered the question on how you feel different now, which is what I was after here
But I feel like I have space to me myself alot more, which is great. It's like instead of being in the eye of the storm, I am learning to side step it, and be like 'nice storm' oh well. I'm still affected by the storm, but I'm not overwhelmed by it.
that's great. and I relate to both; i needed a lot of work on empath issues to even kind of start feeling (like) myself, to come back to finding the threat that is my own identity and feelings among all that random noise signal from everywhere. i think i'd lost it for years, was unable to say what i feel, want, desire, who i am etc. after working on this, it's quite miraculous how i feel that my sense of "self" is slowly coming back and feeling more and more solid ... and how i'm also able to show and assert that sense in daily life more and more.
is this similar to what you mean or was your case less extreme?
"space" in a way nails it, too.
and the storm metaphor ... ya, that took me a long time, but that's what i actually feel my meditation practice did for me. that wasn't just about empath stuff though, i had quite intense emotions and "mystical experiences" or whatever you want to call them always, so i needed to practice meditation for years just to not get swept up by that. and then when i learnt i'm an empath, i'm applying the same skills now, just with a different perspective.
it's like you say, the storm doesn't necessarily calm dawn (certainly not instantly) but you find a standing ground, some kind of inner independence from it. in my case very, very gradually.
it's like you re-shape yourself to deal with it differently. and i think after a long period of practice, the relative size of the storm changes, as in a way you "zoom out" and that creates mental space. also very slowly i could realise that in some small ways, i do have control, e.g. i can stop doing certain things that magnify it.