There is always that one person you meet who make you stutter, say foolish things or act silly and awkward with. You know you're not acting like yourself, but somehow when you're around them, you become another person.
I read in another thread here about this situation with "judgmental people," who expect, or somehow persuade, others to act according to their judgment. But then you snap out of the spell as you see through their real intentions.
One such person has been bothering me though, an old professor in our university. I still can't figure him out, he is such a puzzle to me. His eyes, sometimes light up with amusement, but most of the time they are fixed on judging or seeing through each person in the class. He is not like the other "judgmental people" I've met. He has such a gentle and kind aura, that I often feel calm or let my guard down during his class. He does not feel intimidating like the others.
But when I get called to recite, like most of my classmates, I would speak gibberish, like I twisted my tongue and forgot how to construct sentences. I know I'm better than that, if I really wanted to I can talk my way out. Maybe he thinks I'm so bad in class that I couldn't look him in the eye, but it would be a huge trigger for me if I were to make direct eye contact. When he's not looking my way, I see the mix of emotions in his eyes.
It's just that I always forget to keep my guard up because of the "calm" I feel, then it's like I'm trapped at his own pace. What's worse is that I feel giddy with my silly answers while I'm in class. But then I'd snap out of the haze later, and regret not doing a lot better.
I don't know how to deal with this. It's taking too long for me this time to overcome this obstacle.
A little help? Thanks
updated by @eri-ameonna: 10/16/17 08:23:34PM