Hello all! I don't know were to begin. I recently decided to change careers and, as a result, am back in college. I am not working and the age of 30 I find myself with more time on my hands than I know what to do with. Perhaps it is because of this I often find myself reflecting on my life. I have come to the realization that I am an ugly person. I have hurt a lot of people, not on purpose, but I still have hurt many, many people. Most of the time it is because they are my friend and than I realize that they are draining me, not good for me, or manipulate me emotionally. Once I come to this realization, which often takes me months, I cut all ties to them physically. Emotionally is another story. I feel so bad that I have to this. I ponder if it was the right thing to do a lot. Well, I have done this many, many times. I have left so many people behind that I know hate me. I try to tell myself it is a good thing but it feels like a lie. I am trying to come to terms with the things I have done, trying to figure out who I am. I hope I can find peace here. Thank you for reading this.
updated by @finding-peace: 08/06/18 02:19:27PM