Hi, I realised a few years back that I easily absorb the feelings of others and even more so when I make a connection with them over time. Well in the last six months I made a connection with a girl. We spoke alot on messenger and met up a few times but it was a more emotional connect. Being an empath I learned to shield from damaged people but for some reason I let my guard down, choosing to trust her but in the end she had some issues (ex boyfriend that she was getting back with as well) and I had to cut off.
It's been a week and I'm still feeling her inside me, I know some hurt is mine but I can feel her pain and essense if that makes sense and it's causing me a great deal of pain. She was very clingly emotionally and I allowed her to attach to me, I suppose I was lonely myself or something but I dropped my guard. I think she is a love addict and I was feeling her euphoria and I mistook it for love. I know that sounds calculated but I've loved a girl before and it was more dear than this. This girl isn't someone I really match well with, we have not much in common but that we communicate on this emotional level. I'm more star struck by her, but not sure if it's love. Perhaps crazy love but real love I'm not sure. I feel like I because more addicted to her than loved her if that makes sense.
Now I feel like I'm trying to break free from drug abuse, going cold turkey, but there's a gut wrenching feeling most nights that prevents me from sleeping and even has me throwing up (nothing). I'm trying to detach but it won't stop, it's like someone has a grip on my insides and it's ripping me apart. Sorry to get so heavy but I was wondering if anyone has experienced this before. I know for most, breakups are painful but I think for empaths it's extra acute because we're so sensitive.
I've tried visualizing sheilding, pulling away etc but it seems to come back even stronger, as if punishing me for trying to break away from the pain. It's like I have no choice but to wait it out but for how long?
updated by @stills: 08/05/17 08:34:16AM