Jodi, you are not alone in feeling all of these feelings. I don't have any friends either. I can make friends but they don't seem to last long. (Then I get my feelings hurt when they don't want to do things or avoid my calls)...and I don't know why, so I have grown comfortable having animals as friends. You don't have to worry about them being "two faced", they don't lie to you and love unconditionally.I was in a similar situation with a job in my past. Trust your intuition on this one, you might want to start job hunting. If you stay you will continue to be miserable and it will take a toll on you. Mine got so bad I thought I was losing my mind, went to a counselor, she told me that it was in my head (labeled it paranoia) and put me on pshyc meds. I was fired a month later. Since I have found to trust that " little voice in my ear ".Just remember....you are not alone. We all have a lot in common here.