Yesterday i had an experience that I'm not sure about....I could really use some input, advice or whatever.
Ok, here goes....
My wife and i have a friend who has just opened up a metaphysical store. We had discussed a possible job for me a few days a week so i went down to talk to him about it. I was feeling pretty drained, its been a long week and a lot of people have needed my energy. I'm not so good at replenishing myself, yet, or remembering to do so. As soon as I got there and started talking to him, I went from feeling drained to feeling a whole host of other emotions: anger, angst, frustration, despair and worthlessness. He started asking me what was wrong and told me that my aura was kind of iffy and flickery. We started discussing some things that are going on in my personal life and relationship with my wife and my the things i was feeling intensified, which came as a total surprise, because a lot of the things we were talking about are things that i have been successfully dealing with in myself.
Just for some background info, around the first of the year I experienced what I guess was nothing short of a total spiritual awakening, which has totally transformed me for the better, and i have been working really hard at solving that ultimate question, "Who art thou?" Its been difficult, but infinitely rewarding, and i really feel like I've made a lot of progress in getting reacquainted with my soul and dealing with some misconceptions and archaic mindsets, which were keeping me from really living.
Anyway, he kept questioning me about what was going on and all the while, he was furiously trying to get his computer to work, dealing with people who were coming in and bothering him, and also trying to deal with his boyfriend, who was being annoying. I stayed for about an hour and a half, trying to have this conversation with him, all the while feeling worse and worse. My visit culminated in watching/feeling a fight between him and his boyfriend. There was such violence in it, even though it was just a verbal conflict, that i could almost see the energy play between them. Needless to say, it was extremely uncomfortable and i left as soon as i could find a way to do so without being rude. When i got home, i was so depressed, and honestly wanted to die(not that I have any intention of harming myself, just the desire for it to end).
So my questions are thus: Were the awful things I was feeling more likely his and not mine? Do you think its possible that the experience was worse because he is a powerful witch and that much more in touch with the universe than average people? And finally, my impulse is to avoid him and to turn down the job offer, because i don't feel like i can work there now, that its not the right place for me to be while dealing with the intense self exploration I've been undertaking. Should I turn down the job? And is my desire to avoid spending too much time down there a result of intuition or is it just because my experience yesterday was so bad?
updated by @ren-mcquiston: 06/15/17 07:42:48AM