Talia, first I want you to know that I know you're actually on the right path! I know it sucks but look at where you are at. You've escaped all the things that were literally ripping your life apart! That shows you are one hell of a strong amazing person. I commend you for whhat you've done!!!! I'd also like to point some things out. First of all your senses are not as blocked as you think, because if you really look at the situation you know that that your purpose is to help people. Most people would be so jaded by now that they wouldn't even care about helping other people. Also you knew how bad things were and that you had to get out of it. Alot of people stay in the same horrible situation because they've gotten to believe they're not worth any better than what they're experiencing. So your ability to know the truth about what you needed to do was thoroughly in tact. and. You were having visions! You knew undoubtedly what the future had in store for you if you didn't get out! We undermine ourselves constantly that's cuz our ego likes to make us second doubt ourselves. It is part of what I believe is blocking you. Now I can tell you a couple things that are affecting you right now. 1. You have post traumatic stress disorder 2. You're making the difficult transition from surviving to living. You are learning that you don't have to survive anymore. It's like getting clean and sober, you have to make a 180 degree turn in order to change so you are not stuck in the same hell were in because you left it and it needs to stay behind you. That is a massive transition it's a huge identity crisis, you are altering your entire existence by not surviving, but living life which is so foreign that it's almost unimaginable. But you have done huge things and taking massive steps to make that transition possible. I know all this because I had to go through it myself. It is so shocking to your system that you almost don't know how to function through it. But you are and you will make transition to living your life and not surviving it. I suggest you get a therapist because they can help you deal with your PTSD because that has a severe effect on how you perceive what is happening around you. Even though you left it behind it's still affecting you and you need someone who can teach you how to control certain triggers and help you heal the mental, emotional, physical, and spiritual trauma from the things inflicted upon you. You're also in shock. It's almost like you are mourning a loss. You had to abandon the person you were and now become the person you were born to be. BUT YOU ARE DOING IT! YOU FEEL LOST BUT IF YOU DIDN'T I WOULD BE WORRIED. When it comes to your abilities you can get them to surface again. You have to have faith and I suggest you develop a spiritual practice if you don't have one now. Ask your angels to help you, learn to balance your chakras, spend time in nature, take care of yourself by nourishing your body with proper sleep, eating well, and doing something physical (I highly suggest yoga!) Get reiki treatments (there are alot of places that have student clinics that charge almost nothing if they charge at all for a reiki treatment), meditate....do anything that will lower your stress level and is connected to the spiritual aspects of life because they bring the divine person you are back to life. We are spiritual beings having a human experience. Also start to try and live in the moment and be mindful because that will help you notice the signs that are happening around you. It's your angels and God (if that's how you refer to source energy) sending you messages and guidance. You are going to be perfectly fine and you're clairsenses an empathic abilities are alive and kicking but just suffocated right now. You are going to bring them to life but you do have a lot going on and all of that affects you on all levels. Having faith and your spirituality is what is going to awaken what you feel has fallen asleep. Please message me if you need help at any time no matter what it is regarding! I've lived what you are living, I am also in the process of reawakening abilities. And one last thing, it's vital as an empath to protect your energy field. There are visualisations you can do that will clear your aura of any negativity you've collected in it, but I highly suggest you pick up a couple of Crystals to carry with you and have around you at all times. Grab some amethyst, black tourmaline and seraphinite! They will provide protection from absorbing energies that are negative, provide safety and healing, and connect you with the spiritual realm and your angels and guides. They don't have to be expensive. Tumbled stones are usually a couple dollars at stores that carry crystals. If you need help finding a store message me and I'll find you one. I'll make sure you get the Crystals that will provide protection and healing. So don't worry about that. Just concentrate on yourself and know that by reaching out in this community is a huge step in the right direction in terms of adapting to your new life. And congratulations! It's like you've been reborn and you are going to create a beautiful life.
With love and light, Michelle