You are a very highly evolved spirit. I know people who are from the Pleiades system who are a lot like you.They have a VERY hard time being here and wish to "Go Home". Have you read "The Three Waves of Volunteers and The New Earth" by Dolores Cannon or "The Recalibration of Humanity 2013 and Beyond" by Kryon? When my wife and I are not at work we "hold up" in our home as well. You are not alone.
Throw some love into the wind