I guess my first question is do you meditate ? And if so , do you ground yourself? Even though I knew I was different from others all my life I also had a anger problem. Where others would cry or hide from everyone and everything. I fought. I would get so a very because everyone was so needy. I was pulled in so many directions I would just want to hide. That is until I found this forum. Now I'm more level. And it's because I learned to ground. It was the beginning of my journey. Not saying I don't still have my moments but I know to find my center and that's were the good me lives. They have some information on how to turn this down slowly on the introduction on this forum or some of the more experienced members can direct you to them. We all have been there and understand where your at at this moment. And these folks here are wonderful. Don't be afraid to ask questions or just post your feelings because we do it also. If you need to talk just message me and I will help all I can. This will pass. And your whole world will change when you learn how to somewhat control it. It will be more of an enjoyable journey. Tomorrow is s new day. You just have to learn to bring the light to it. Peace
I'm so sorry also. I didn't get a notification that you had replied. You don't have to meditate to ground. You can ground in nature. Getting outside (hard to this time of year). Setting in woods or In your yard handling rocks, animals, anything to connect with the earth will help ground you Huggjng a tree (I know it sounds strange ) or anything like that will help. Yes, meditation helps me the most but I bought my first grounding stone today.It sounds like your a healer but you must take care of your self before you can help anyone else. I don't know what your belief system is but sounds you need to learn to cut the pain cords after you take pain from people or let it flow though you and out of you. You can't hold their pain in you. Before I learn to cut cords I was doing the same thing and I was so messed in the head. I feel physical and mental pain from people and animals and I was a total nervous wreak. There are slit of good healers on this site and I have found if you post on the blog or activity page more people seems to reply. I'm not sure why.The part where you said you want your family to be afraid of you, it's so they will stay away from you so you won't "feel" so much? If so, it don't work that way. Your an Empath, and until you learn to control the feelings your taking in, you can't stop it . Some of the feelings your feeling could be from complete strangers.Last week I had stopped to talk to a young mother to be that's unborn child had died and she was waiting on the doctor to induce labor. I touched her arm and her grid was so strong and ran though me, I could not get out of the building fast enough. I couldn't breath well and started having heart pains and I do not have a heart condiction. I went home and cut those cords of her pain. So see, we have to learn these skills to live somewhat of a normal life and once we do, we can help others.I have to tell you once you learn to control it you will also feel the good vibs and they are wonderful. I Sure you have some skills you haven't decovered yet because you feel so much. We are put here , I believe , to help others. Even the ones that has alrady passed on.I didn't know either, when learning or putting a word with my abalities, Empath, that there was a whole world of things waiting on me to learn for my journey. To tell you the truth I didn't have time to stop to meditate everyday until one night I sat down after the house got quite and found a Guided meditation on YouTube that was only 10 min. I tried it and even though I didn't know what I was doing, it worked so I started doing it every night cause I felt so much better and calmer and I found other meditations now I'm a meditating freak. Lol. I have also learned I am not responsible for making everyone happy and I cannot solve all of the worlds problems.But I started out by typing in "meditations for Empaths and it so happened to be a grounding and protection meditation. It helps clear my mind and gives me a few min of peace. The peace I needed. I hope I have helped a little because I took up a lot of your time with this long reply. Im sending you some light with love and peace of mind.