Who takes care of the Empath
updated by @rene: 07/14/17 03:09:59AM
Oh yes. . . but I have given up on that thought. It's not gonna happen. There's a quote that I've found helpful from Dgha Nikya: "...live with yourself as an island, yourself as a refuge, with no other refuge, with the Teaching as an island, the Teaching as a refuge, with no other refuge."
I'm constantly taking care of everybody around me. Sometimes I wish I could find someone that would take care of me for once. BUT - at the same time, I don't like relying on anyone to take care of me, but myself. When I meditate, I get lost for hours. I feel like I belong. That may sound a bit frightening to most people, but that's how it is for me. My life isn't TERRIBLE. I could improve though if I really tried hard enough. Something is keeping me away from being happy and care-free. I can't control how I feel all the time, you know?
I'm not going to go to a therapist, or a doctor, or a psychiatrist because none of them will understand. Medication is something I cut off a long time ago, and I'm sick and tired of having my parents assume that I'm "mentally ill" because I'm off of my anti-depressants.
I met one amazing person on here so far and we're already best friends. It's unfortunate that she is far away, but perhaps we will meet some day, soon enough.
Sorry, this is a lot to read and I'm pretty much venting on someone else's venting post!
I hope you feel better soon. You seem like a very beautiful and bright person.