Abortion and Empaths
updated by @moonlitbiscuit: 01/09/17 12:52:22AM
Pro-life. In high school health class, my teacher went through a long detailed process on how everything was done and what happened.Pretty soon I was full blown sobbing, I had to leave the class because I was crying so hard. At the end of it the teacher told me she was sorry but she had to be as descriptive as possible, she was pro life as well and trying to spread awareness. She'd asked me if I had one before, she thought it was guilt. I told her no. But I don't think she believed me, that was worse than anything I think. Not getting how someone could get so upset and it not be guilt. After that, I just quit going to school. I didn't realize until just now how my desire to go there stopped that night. It was a night school and I already had a daughter at the time. I got my G.E.D instead. I don't know if would feel the emotions from an unborn child but i could see and imagine it clearly and plainly in my head, and I didn't like it.
From what I heard, most women do not make that decision easily. If they do decide to abort, there will likely be important reasons.... I cannot say if what you felt is genuine, I used to feel all sorts of things, that over time stopped, so there is a chance that the initial feelings came out of paranoia. I have also become more level headed about suffering on this planet. So even if what you say is true, that being will go straight back into the Light, where it can receive healing. Whereas if that child is unwanted, but brought to term due to legislation or guilt - it will potentially have years of being unloved, feeling unwanted, underfed, maybe even abused etc....
I.e. it is too difficult an equation for me to come to a decision either way. So as with all such things, as far my input is required or appropriate, I pray and ask that the overall suffering bottom line be considered and the smaller value brought to be....
I'm against abortion. But I do feel a woman has the right to make a choice if the conception came about in a traumatic way, like through rape for instance. Not every pregnant woman is gonna want to carry that reminder through life for the next 9 months and 18 years.
Sometimes beliefs are less relevant than practicality and preservation of life that is already here, IMO.
Most of you are too young to remember the Dalkon Shield Disaster. In 1970, A.H. Robbins Pharmaceuticals had a scientist who completely made up all of his research on the first IUD for women who'd never been pregnant. It was put on the market, and was a seeming God send for me, since I'd just been told I had to go off the pill or risk a stroke.
The IUD caused a severe infection known as PID. It eventually led to a class action law suit because 200,000 American women lost their ability to have kids forever. I was one of them, but I did not know it for quite awhile, so failed to join the lawsuit.
After it caused infection, I had to use less reliable methods. I did not know I had severe scarring, so my womb could not expand. I was told there was at least a 75% chance I could not bring a child to term. My husband wanted kids and I knew he'd divorce me eventually over this, so it was a last straw that resulted in divorce.
Fast forward to my marriage to a man who was adopted and said it was fine and we could adopt. I got pregnant despite using birth control, but had to abort it to save my life, due to scarring. We found out our state said we did not make enough money to adopt, though both of us worked 55 hrs. a week. I got pregnant again, though I was now using an even better form of birth control, ended up hospitalized, unable to walk and on morphine, and once again had to have an abortion to save my life, only this time I had to go 70 miles away to a University hospital, since the only hospital where we lived was Catholic, and they told me it was God's will that my baby and I should die, since they would not do abortions. Since he wanted kids, he started cheating on me with one of his employees who already had a child while I was in the hospital. I begged the doctor to take out my plumbing, so I would not have to go through this horror again and he did.
Thank God for Roe v. Wade or I'd have been dead long ago, all because some scientist cheated in an effort to make a name for himself. No price can be put on the suffering and the rejection I felt.
Maybe I am just trying to make myself feel better, but I've heard many mediums speak on this and say that abortion is often written into your life contract, and you will see the baby on the other side, and/or the soul will simply choose another suitable womb to be born into in order to fulfill it's purpose. I've also heard them say the baby's soul is in and out of the body often from about 3 mos. after conception through the first year of life. I don't know what is true.
Do I feel guilty? Of course I do, and it gets worse as I get older. I often wonder what they would have been like.....But, I also wonder what the hell else could I have done in the circumstances? Would I have stayed in what were obviously weak marriages just for the kids? I just don't know. I think the options must be there in a free society, though we should certainly rely less on them, and it might help if kids were taught just how unreliable many forms of birth control really are.
Just my two cents,
I am Pro Life... HOWEVER.... I have had an abortion. Yes i hear the condemnation, I was my worst enemy as well ...UNTIL it was over.
The situation was, I am a mum of 5, my youngest at the time were 3,2,1 and I found out i was pregnant again. I had always wanted a large family so under normal circumstances I would have been elated, however I wasn't in normal circumstances. I was in the process of separating from my partner and father of the other children under extremely volatile circumstances. He was partially diagnosed with personality disorder and bi-polar, however at the time was suffering a sever episode with psychosis and delusional symptoms, which i found myself at the centre of. IT was an extremely abusive and violent period throughout my life, one which i am still cleaning up the psychological and legal effects of, and then to find out i was pregnant was just too much. Deciding to have an abortion was the hardest decision I've made, I had to fly to another town and attend the centre on my own. IT was extremely traumatic for me as I felt it was like a meat processing plant, whilst others sat around laughing and joking, updating snapchats and Facebook and discussing how many times they had been there, i sat in tears and in prayer. I had called on my guides and an aunty who had passed the year prior to come be with me. When i went into the theatre I closed my eyes with tears rolling down and asked my aunty to come take my baby before the doctors did. When I woke up i had been expecting to feel like an emotional wreck, however it was the most at peace that i had felt in so many months, i felt so full of love knowing i had done the right thing, knowing my baby was safe and well cared for, she was loved and had so much joy surrounding her. I left and later that day i passed by a crystal shop and a little gypsy lady came out to tell me "all was ok and my aunty had HER!" well.... I just cried!! I still see her in my dreams, I have a few token momentos, however i communicate with her frequently. I don't feel she has come back elsewhere yet, she is still with my aunty and she is so so happy. When I feel down i am able to draw on this very pure joyous energy that is full of innocence. Outside of this, I have miscarried a number of times whilst trying for baby #3. I would say neither are an easy journey to work through, however am comfortable with my decision. I wouldn't do it again though! And don't recommend it!