Sounds like you have been though a lot. You said you are meditating, are you grounding when meditating? The things you have lived though is over whelming enough if you wasn't an Empath. A person dying as you was praying over him would be hard for anyone to accept, it would be for me. The the murder. I haven't lived though the things you have but you are going to have to learn a way to release those attachments. Maybe calling on your angels or guides to help you cut the cords that are binding you to all of this death around you. Bless your heart.It's hard to say why you are crying. Maybe someone's else's tears or maybe your way of dealing with greif. I cry too but usually feel better after a good cry. I'm so sorry this is happening to you.