How do you see yourself?
updated by @demipanda: 09/18/17 01:22:16PM
Well I have no problem answering as it is the only way to heal and move on from toxic self image by acknowledging it accepting it vocalizing it and moving on. I have had terrible issues in my life with self image and inner issues as well with emotions and such as many of us do. I still fight the battle of convincing me that me is beautiful and worth something to someone some where on a companionship level. I have had serious issues with intimacy at times in life because of it (battling being overweight my whole life). I am finally at an age where I am just beginning to accept and forgive myself (been a long time coming). Also I get a great deal of enjoyment helping others but at times it seems so taxing especially when EVERYONE flocks to you even when you dont want it for advice, love, healing etc... Now that part is over with lol. The other part of this question... Hmmmm .... Well I guess in short see myself as a mix of a little bit of everything. I love a good party though drinking is getting to be a bit much for me (the recovery is quite painful these days and the feeling it gives me is horrific on an internal and spiritual level). I totally am into music but am tired of all this cookie cutter garbage that's mass produced by the brain wash/rot mass media with all the symbolism. I am what you would call a mix of Goth, Redneck, Urban LOL I love Country, Rockabilly, Psychobilly, Punk, some Metal, Industrial, Darkwave, Synthy techno, some Rap and R&B stuff sometimes.... I EXTREMELY love Motorcycles, Hot Rods/Rat Rods and the outdoors stuff like fishing and hunting (though in last few years I have gotten way out of control on my weight due to a slump and don't get out much now). I am a serious extrovert and tend to be in the middle of everything whether for good or bad it seems sometimes as I have a great love for people and social interactions (when I am not having a bad spot in life). I am also a big fan of tattoos and such (I have over 50 of them). When I am not reading about things in the news from various places around the world or studying researching things that fascinate me (paranormal, supernatural, psychic phenomena) I am gaming to my hearts content to try and detach from all this nastiness going on in the world at times. I have done and love all types of gaming. L.A.R.P. , CCG, Table Top, PC, Console you name it.... I have gamed it probably LOL Also, I am a dog lover....total dog freak LOL Though my attitudes towards many things in and among those loves and hobbies is changing the more I "wake up" to the world around me and the reality of the "illusion" we are force fed to accept and "like" or "believe". So, as time goes on I find my self rapidly changing in some aspects but completely keeping my idea and loves for other hobbies and habits. As I approach my mid 30's I am aware this is one of many transitional times in my life so I expect much more adventure awaits lol. Well.... thats me in a nutshell I guess LOL ... A very big nutshell ... I am sure there is more I am just not thinking of it right now
OMG.... I am a total comic dork no shame here LOL I played DC Universe Online from 2011 till last December. I dont know why but i just enjoy the epicness and good escape of a good comic book. Although, I also love some manga, anime and graphic novels.... I am a big reader :D