It's been about a year since I've been on this site. When I got back to this site, I reviewed my discussions and realized that I have a yearly meltdown and end up on here just after my birthday, trying to figure out what the heck I am and where I am going
I am overwhelmed again, not shielding, though I remember to do it more often. I am so tired of the hatred and fear I am feeling that I want to evaporate. I live in the South and get to experience a lot of Trump supporters here. Even in my classes I'm feeling overwhelmed. Last semester, I was trying to lecture on Sexuality in my Psychology Class, and I would start to explain something and suddenly get very unsure of what I was saying and sounded like I was changing my viewpoints every few minutes. The students were as confused as I was. After class I was sitting at my desk completely confused and realized I was channeling my students feeling about different subjects. I had to start wearing my stones to class so that I could teach.
My doctor wants me to see a counselor because my depression is getting worse. The logical part of me says that metaphysical things are not real, however, the other feeling part of me says that they are real. My experiences show me that I am a pretty serious empath and wickedly good at dream interpretation.
If I tell a counselor I am an empath, he/she will think that I need to be committed because I am psychotic.
Last year I figured out how to work around my knee problems and immediately developed back problems and I have not figured out how to maintain employment with both problems.But I'm in a lot of pain. I will teach a night class this July, but I don't think I can do regular classes in the Fall. And I'm the only income earner in the house. So good thoughts/prayers would be appreciated.
Ok, this post t is too long. Right now my shielding consists of stones and using a mirror or bubble to shield. Any other suggestions. How do I reconcile the two parts of myself? Maybe I am crazy
Suggestions are seriously appreciated.
Peace to all
updated by @4peace: 01/09/17 12:52:01AM