I've posted a few times on here so far, including an introduction, replies, and new topics... I wanted to first thank you all so much for creating/joining/being part of such and amazing group of truly amazing people. Since I've discovered myself, all things seem to fall into place so much more elegantly. Its hard to explain how my mind works, as I've been spending 90% of my down time browsing the largest accumulation of human knowledge in existence, thanks to the internet (especially *Stumbleupon.com) I've been absorbing knowledge from every corner of science, culture, art, music, history, and conspiracy you can think of, with 99.999% still unexplored. In 10 years give or take, I have spent maybe 24 hours watching cable t.v. I have to say, once you have a deeper understanding of multiple complex systems in nature, your mind seems to create a bigger picture, one which can not be observed, explained, or understood clearly, however a placid understanding of the unknown "inch long equation" as we search for, seems to be eerily calming, almost soothing, as if I am home when meditating on it, as a lot of empaths feel like they are waiting, or on a mission, I too have felt this way my whole life and believe that only once I achieved enlightenment would I stopped wanting, eliminating all craving, all selfishness, all greed, and let love dictate my actions rather than logic, I began following my heart, and once I did the most amazing things started happening, things would come to me, physically in this 3rd dimensional world and spiritually, my "abilities" have become autonomous in waking life, (i.e. my wife serves everyday she comes home and asked how much i think she made, with no knowledge I can look at her and have the number almost ALWAYS exactly 1 dollar off without thinking, it is just there, the look on her face is priceless) I don't feel impressed with myself, no ego boost, I feel scared that this is even more real than I had expected, this feeling goes much deeper when I think back to being a child, for some strange reason I always believed in the power to read minds, that deep down belief, the kind you don't know why you have it, the one that's embedded into your soul and drives you. Did I believe this my whole life because I had the ability, or did the ability become because I believed it. From this I learned the true meaning of believing, without proof, just knowing, well, maybe not the meaning, but the difference in telling myself otherwise. From this I started to change and rewire my belief systems and apply the same feeling of belief to other things in my life, and the strangest things started happening all around me, I believe my projections have been altering reality in ways that I desire. As if this entire life of mine is only existing to me and everyone else is a part of my version of the universal energy, that I am everyone, but this is my point of view, its a very deep connection and difficult mindset to explain, but I see differently now, I have completely removed self, and found who I really am. Catch 22 if you will. For the first time in my life I am free, I am happy, I am on the mountaintop with a window to the stars and a door to the world, thankful for every aspect of my life, even my horrible past has become the most important piece of the puzzle for me to truly see.
I don't know what to believe about any of mankind's explanations, no one religion or culture drives me to follow, I am an observer, I know my role, and it is not to find the answer, it is to understand the unknowing, and guide others to find the peace within themselves, I would not be able to die a happy man if I did not follow this, It is the only thing that makes me feel good about myself, is giving the light to others, not building something amazing, not knowing as much as I do, not being able to do so many different things, none of it matters if not for others to share with.
You know those little sayings you heard your whole life
"It is what it is"
"Do unto others..."
"Eye for an eye makes the whole world blind"
"forgive and forget"
Don't forget those quotes, it is the only way to live and it is extraordinarily easy
Money. Power. Respect. - social medias guide to a happy life
Peace. Love. Happiness - the universes guide to a happy life
I guess the point of this whole post is that I want you to believe when no one else will, I want you to share joy and love, forgive and grow, you're more powerful than you think. Turn the TV off if you haven't already and learn something, the experience of life and time is much longer when the time spent is fulfilling. You're going to die someday stop rushing it.
updated by @seanw4202: 01/16/17 11:19:47AM