Hello Kristen. Yes, I understand everything you said. I have been there and it's a lonely place to be , I know. Do you meditate ? That is a sure way of finding and healing yourself. Yes, there are so many fake people in this world. It's ashamed they don't take the time to know someone. But they are usually caught up in themselves. Is your husbands condition controlled by medication ? Your taking on every one else's feelings it sounds like. It's had to carry every one else's burdens around. I know. I have tried it but I just can't do it. I understand you are pushing people away and I know it is to get some relief but you should try cutting cords during meditation. And get very grounded. That will help also. So sorry your life is so grim. Your husbands condiction is what's worrying you the most , isn't it. I hope he is getting help with that. His condiction will become yours also so be careful.
Ok. The weed is self medicating. I haven't smoked it in over 20 years but I do remember how much it calmed my mind. I will say before you can help someone heal you have to heal yourself. I understand what is happening while you are trying to meditate but it you would try it every day, just 10 min. Even when you can't cal. Your mind, if you keep trying, it will start working. Have you tried guided meditation on you tube. It helps following someone elses voice when you can't calm your mind. The breathing help also. I usually do it at night when everyone is asleep and the house is quiet. And I have one other suggestion. Have you thought your husband may be an intuitive The voices he heard may be really a form of communication from beyond. Just something to think about. Maybe he needs to try meditation if he believes in it. My husband doesn't but does not stop me. Listen. Make a list of everything that is depressing you and look at that list. Look for the things you can Actually changed and what you can not change. Start by changing what you can and mark it off. The things you cannot change , cut cords to it. You really have to try at this. Make it do able. I don't know if your religious but if you are pray also. I'm sending you love and light and peace to you sweet girl.
I use white sage. Well.. For it working well, I would say yes if the energy is willing to leave. Some are standoffish. I keep thinking about your husband. Did his mental illness start before you moved into your home or after. Have y'all played games trying to see or hear spirits ? If your home really old or in and really old neighborhood.?
Hi...I'm sorry...but I hear voices too....they are NOT a mental illness...I took meds for a while and really they do nothing...i've since come to the conclusion I am Clairaudient. ..and the voices are actually spirit...and crap people carry in their energy...I thot at one time i too was schizophrenic....had quite a few tests...and all was normal....except for my b12...so...if your husband has a chance he should look up Clairaudience....and he will also be an empath...as I am as well....