I was waiting for my profile to be approved so I could respond to this post lol. I find the subject of empath parents intriguing and Im actually writing a book about my own. Ill try to make it concise here.
After much consideration, I believe my mother to be the narcissist and my father to be the empath. The tricky part about it was that my mother is the affectionate one who dotes on her children and seems compassionate, caring and overprotective. My father, on the other hand, is the aggressive brute, physically and verbally abusive misogynist that shows little to no affection, has a quick temper and loves to throw around accusations. Hes also quite paranoid. To an outsider, my mother may seem like an empath and my father the narcissist. I was inclined to believe so as well since I usually favored my mother and currently want to be as far away from my father as humanly possible. But this is not the case.
After much research Ive found that my father is more likely to be the empath which explains his destructive behavior. He was abused as a child, both physically and verbally, and dealt with a lot of racism growing up (something he still has trouble dealing with today). He was taught to always look out for himself first and to never show emotion. He had only one true friend who recently died and he never mourned. It was as if it never happened. My mother, who was also physically and verbally abused, was not as easily swayed to hit her children. It took me a long time to notice that she had other ways of hurting people. She is extremely manipulative, vindictive and vengeful. As sweet as she may seem, shell flip in an instant. Although he shows little emotion aside from anger, I can always see the abused little boy inside of him that wasnt loved enough. And although my mother will say and do just about anything to have her way regardless of who gets trampled in the process, I can still see the abused little girl inside of her that just wants someone to care.
This would be hard for anyone to deal with, I think. But growing up as an empath (which I strongly believe I am) has made this nearly impossible. I love psychology and tend to psychoanalyze my parents often, and I know that they project all of their anger, insecurities and past traumas onto me and use me as a punching bag. I resent them both for this, but I also understand where it comes from and cant help but feel sorry for them. I used to think it was my responsibility as their daughter to help them through it but you cant help someone who wont admit they have a problem. And between the two of them, the problems are endless.
My older sister was physically abused more than I was and I watched her changed in many ways over the years. I think she could have been an empath but theres no way to tell now. She got involved in a small religious cult, married into it and had 3 children in about 3 years. Communication was rare and when she did speak to us it was a shouting match about heaven and hell. Its hard to remember who she was and to see who shes become, abuse really changes people. And worse yet, she and her husband abuse their children, and because of the strained relationship we have with their family my mother always begs me not to confront them about it. I feel like the crazy one because Im watching my family destroy each other and Im the black sheep because Im the only one who seems to care. Im constantly asking why I was given these parents; I just dont understand why Im here if I cant help them.