I'm sorry you are having a tough time. I can completely relate to feeling like you're drowning. So much emotion, good and bad, its a lot to take on and have to feel. I have suffered from crippling anxiety for many years and I imagine that was/is due to being bogged down with everyone's emotions because I wasunaware of howgreatly they affect me.
I have good moments, where I feel relieved that I now understand and can even gain a bit of control by really stopping to think if a particular emotion is mine or not (more often than not, they aren't mine!) but I have just as many overwhelming moments where I can't separate what is mine and what is not.
Fitting in is tough. I'm finding it even harder now that I understand what is going on. I'm thrilled to finally understand myself and I want to share with anyone who will listen! Unfortunately, to someone with no experience - this may be a little 'out there' and I've only talked about it with a couple of very good friends. They try to be supportive but its very clear to me that it is a bit much for them to swallow. I've had to quit sharing with them. It made me uncomfortable to watch their reactions after a bit which is what lead me here! (And you can tell by my long winded responses that I'm still very eager to talk about it!)
I hope you are able to find some peace and thank you so much for the reminder that I am not alone.