I keep being told that my 3rd eye is blocked because of fear. I had a reading done on it that mentions that it has to do with 2 distinct past life experiences, one where I was too afraid to "see" and another where I was punished for "seeing". Now, I remember that at some point in my development in this life, I did shutdown my gifts and turn my life over to servitude and the mercy of the elements. I convinced myself that God's love had to be earned. However, my time as a travel nurse taught me that struggle is not necessary for growth and that changed the view I had of the Divine and of my life.As a result, I made a promise to myself that I would trust myself implicitly. But my gifts never fully returned.
I think this has to do with the other part of my past life experience. The part where I was too afraid to "see". In this life, while in college I started "seeing", "hearing", communicating with angels, "leaving" my body as well has having all my other intuitive abilities heightened. But this terrified me. I was afraid of what it could mean and I was afraid of changing too drastically to the point of becoming almost unrecognizable to others I knew as well as to myself. I was afraid that if I continued down this road and welcomed these gifts that I wouldn't be able to continue down the path I had wanted for myself. It was a control thing. And I essentially tried to kill a part of myself. But now I want it back or I feel like I do. But the fear is still there on some level of what it could mean or would mean to accept it and welcome these gifts back into my life.
The fear I carry in this life is the block. Not of being punished, but of how much I could change by having these gifts be a natural and welcomed part of my life. But I want to be whole.I have a family member who has similar gifts of sight and I've been encouraging her to embrace herself, to not do what I did by shutting down and essentially trying to kill myself on some level but I'm being a hypocrite.
I want my gifts back. I want to reignite that fire in myself. But how?
updated by @crownite: 07/23/18 03:05:41AM