hi, i'm new here first of all, english is not my mother tongue so please forgive me if i write something weird
about since the new year has started, i've been trying to figure out if i might be an empath. there are certain things that make me think so:
i feel highly affected by other people's mood and especially moodswings to the worse, without them having to express it (although i'm especially sensitive to voices). when i catch someone's bad mood, i get really jittery, nervous and anxious. sometimes it even triggers anxiety attacks. apart from normal symptoms that come with anxiety attacks and nervousness etc, there are no other physical effects though.
as soon as i sense the bad mood, i feel this overwhelming urge to fix things and i won't be able to control myself - i'll be desperately trying to make things better, get a smile from that person etc, because i just can't bear that mood.
i also feel that when i'm with other people, i tend to be almost electrified with too much energy (in a very negative way - like there's too much energy inside me to handle, which in the end just numbs me down enormously) and once i'm alone again i'm so drained and fatigued and need hours of alone time.
when i'm part of a crowd, it gets even worse. in example, although i approve of some political protests, i can't participate because i get immensely scared and overwhelmed with the dynamics of the crowd.
as part of an audience, i often feel like the nervousness of the (ie) actors is taking over me, making me feel close to tears.
i actually barely ever cry for myself, or about personal things in front of others. as soon as i'm confronted with someone (close to) crying, i could bawl my eyes out with them.
i try to be open and careful at the same time when it comes to things like extrasensory perception, etc - still, it's like i know that energy exchange is a huge influence in our daily lives and i try to keep myself very aware of how i word things and try to keep my thoughts and perspectives positive, because i feel like otherwise i might hurt somebody unintentionally with bad energy.
still, i was thinking that due to past slightly traumatic experiences (intense bullying, abusive friendships etc) maybe out of a need for self-protection, i might just be overly paranoid over people's mimics, voice and gestures. but somehow that doesn't add up that well either, since i've overcome quite some issues that were keeping me from healthy relationships in the past.
I also do miss things, and sometimes i indeed am oblivious to someone's pain. while i do have a good intuition and normally i can follow my guts with people, that took me a lot of experience and training, so i don't think it's something extraordinary in that department.
i'm sorry if this was a bit all over the place. i'd just love to now what you think about all that - and more importantly, what kind of feeling you get from me.
and nice meeting you all
updated by @thamara: 01/11/17 12:15:32PM