Hello Melissa, I think you incredible and stronger than you know. You were given your gifts for a reason. I agree with the guys above and if it's not what you are looking for there is so many awsome people on this site that can help you. Some of our experiences may not be as painful as yours but we all know what it feels like to feel lost and misunderstood. I felt that way for many many years. The looks I got from non believers when I would ask them about my insight. It wasn't until I found this sight that I knew I wasn't the only one. If you need to talk you can pm me. I may not have answers but I am a good listener. Of course I am, I'm an Empath. ... Grounding was the first step i took... I hope your day and your days ahead smiles for you.