I remember the first time I "read" a person as an empath. I was probably 5 or 6. At the time, I didnt know what was happening to me. Looking back it set off a chain of events that would lead me to where I am now.
When I was 10 years old I moved here to the US. Feeling all the pain and frustration of my parents and everyone else around me, I wanted to do anything in my power to make their life just a bit easier. Little did I know that later it would break me. For over a decade, I gave my closest people a piece of me each day. I put myself out their for them forgetting completely about myself. All I wanted was to help them. And when I felt overwhelmed I would tell myself that one day it will all change and I will finally live my own life. 12 years later and I am still here. The only difference is that I cannot no longer help the ones in need, because I am so broken myself. I didnt know what I was doing. I didnt know I was an empath until recently.
But I feel like I found out too late. I feel like I am completely open to everything and everyone. Like a antenna that picks up every single channel. And I dont know how to turn it off. I dont have enough energy to do anything about it. And all those people that I tried to help? dont understand me. I feel so alone all the time.
I feel so broken. It broke me completely and the worst part is that I cant put myself together here. I need to go away, to be alone and finally find myself. But I cant go away. Im stuck here. Its getting so bad that Im starting to feel the pain physically. But I cant find any energy to do anything about it. I dont know how to turn it off. Its like my nervous system is in over drive and the lever to turn it down or off is broken.
Anyone have any advice?
updated by @who-am-i: 01/10/17 01:02:02AM