Do any of you get totally exhausted at your jobs, or even just from life? I've been an at home mom and a work from home mom for 20 years. I've had jobs at home and out of the house during that time, but I've only worked full time or close to it twice in those years and one of those times is now. I took a 30 hour a week job at the end of October and I'm utterly shattered at the end of the day. It feels discouraging because my main job is being a writer and a mom, but I don't have any energy left for either of those after a day of work, or for hanging out with friends or enjoying nature or doing art or music or anything that makes me happy. I pretty much just go to my job, come home and lay down exhausted until it's time to go to sleep, then repeat that pattern every day. I do yoga so at least I'm getting some exercise, but that's about all I can do. I don't feel that way on the weekends or holidays when I don't have work, but it sort of hangs heavy on me on work days, and when I know the next day is a work day, too. When my coworkers say they are tired at the end of the day, I know they aren't my level of tired, even when their jobs are harder or more stressful than mine and they work more hours. There's tired, then there's this kind of tired that is hard to function under.
I don't love the job, but it's not a bad job. I work at a school that I love with coworkers that I love and with kids that I love. There is really no reason I should feel like this about this job, but I do and I don't know why. I worked at the same school for much fewer hours last year and the beginning of this school year in a different position. I loved it and had fun doing it, and it felt balancing to me. I took this new position for more hours and money and it is draining me dry.
I keep wondering if it's a thyroid thing or a healing thing as I'm healing from some trauma stuff in childhood and other things or maybe it's the fact that it's winter and my body is trying to hibernate, or whatever else I can think of. I think it's all those things, but I think the big one is the fact that I'm an empath. I know something is draining me there, but I have no idea what. When I worked full time before about 14 years ago, I was like this, too. My work took everything out of me and there was nothing left. I worked with energy vampires in that old job. I wonder if I work with some here, too. I just can't tell. Have any of you had experience with extreme exhaustion from your jobs?
updated by @sarah: 07/24/18 08:52:52AM