Everything you read about empaths always says being an empath is a gift and a curse.
To me its more of a curse than a gift.
I only found out that I was an empath a few months ago, but looking back I feel like it has affected my life since childhood. I have this thing about me that I have to help everyone. I need to help everyone. And in doing so, I lost myself, completely. I am so tired and broken from everything that I can no longer help anyone. I just feel everyones pain. Its like its screaming inside my head. I feel like I am connected to every single person around me. Some more then others. Its like where ever I go I connect to people, like this line reaches from me to them and I take in everything without meaning too. All of the feelings have accumulated to the point that i cant function properly. It feels like they are screaming inside in my head and when they arent I can feel their suffering behind everything. Every where I look I only see pain. I look into somebodys eyes, I dont see their happiness, I only see pain. There is so much pain. All around us. I cant take it anymore. I need this to stop. I need to get my life back.
Im so tired and broken. I cant stop from feeling what everyone else is feeling. I dont have enough energy to do anything about it. I know that there are exercises that help you "dial" down the connections and etc. but I just dont have enough energy to do them. The screaming in my head over powers everything.
I wish there was some cleansing I could do. To start fresh.
updated by @who-am-i: 07/23/18 11:09:14PM