I work at an elementary school. I worked there last year at the after school program and just loved it. This year I took a different position because it had more hours and I needed the money. This new job is a sort of community service type job at the school and so I don't technically work for the school now, even though I work at the school. I work for the service organization that set up this program. The problem is the lady who runs it on the state level is maybe a bad person or something. Whenever I've met with her for training or evaluations, she seems nice enough, but I always leave feeling off or sick or having things start to go wrong in my life and I have to do energy healing to fix it. I thought it was me being sad to leave my after school job for a job with more money, and my anxiety at being new on the job. I was so distressed after I met her the first time and started this job, that I went through a huge depression and started being worried for my safety. It was terrible. I learned this week, though, that the problem isn't me. It's the director lady.
She came for an evaluation for the three of us that work for her in the school a couple of days ago. The day she came, people's cars started breaking down, people started getting sick, everyone was just off. Even one of the ladies in my office who isn't under this director and who isn't an empath in any sense of the word, said she had nightmares after the evaluations that the director walked into our office and wrecked everything up and made it so we couldn't get any of our work done. It turns out, this director lady had just blasted all of us with bad energy to keep us down so she could have control and have all the power. It was so strange and shocking to me. We just want to help the kids at the school. It's not about power or control at all.
I had an energy worker friend clear all that bad energy from me and my co workers the next day, and things got better from there. I realized, though, after that how much energy I pick up from everyone at that school. They had bunches of issues with the computers and testing today and all the teachers and kids were off. I got so exhausted, I could barely sit up. I even thought I was going to be sick from exhaustion. I want to use the techniques here to protect me from other people's energy, but I can't really tell the difference between their's and mine. I don't know if I'm actually exhausted or if everyone around me is exhausted and stressed and I'm just soaking it up. I want to go back to my after school job next year, even though it's less money, it just feels better and makes me happier, but I need to stick this job out for the rest of the school year and summer school. I need to learn to figure out what is my energy and what is other people's if I'm going to do this. I don't know why this particular job is hard for me to tell my feelings from others, maybe some people I work with have such strong energy it's bombarding me or something. I just don't quite get it. All I know is I'm exhausted and I am counting the days until the end of August when I can be done. I hope I can protect myself enough and be able to tell what is my energy and what is other people's to get through it a little better from here on out.
updated by @sarah: 01/14/17 01:23:34PM