I'm a brand-newbie so I'm just beginning to understand this. I've met empaths who feel other people's physical pain in their bodies. I don't experience that; I just internalize emotions and I'm having a horrible time trying to sort that out. I don't read people's thoughts unless they're SO obvious that it's like they have a thought bubble over their heads! I think there must be a whole spectrum of empaths, and you're on it somewhere. You say you don't cry unless you're drunk. That's a big clue to me that you're very blocked - probably you're blocking some pretty overwhelming feelings that you don't know how to manage. I remember crying a lot as a child, for normal reasons like getting hurt or scared, and then all of a sudden I stopped crying and hardly ever do it anymore. I sensed that my mother got "turned on" when I cried, like her maternal instincts went WAY out of whack, and that terrified and disgusted me. So yes, I've been desensitized, but only on the outside. On the inside I'm a mess.