Rene''
Rene''
@rene
2 years ago
1,195 posts
I think you need to grieve. Let yourself grieve. We are so use to everyone else's pain we don't recognize our own. Your mother must of been very special to you. But I don't think that would matter. My mother was a narcissist and she passed away 4 years ago. I'm still mad about it but my reason for being mad is because I feared her for so long and wasn't able to tell her she is hurting me everyday, now I can be mad at her and she can't do anything about it. She cant put me down or scream at me for being mad so I feel safe being mad now. That may not make since.You know in your heart God knows your feelings and there is a reason why he took her. It wasn't to hurt you. It could be, like in my case,to free you. He doesn't make mistakes. And in my Christen learnings I have to say, he gave us his only son and watched as we hung him on a cross and he turned his head away from all the pain his sons human body went though to the point of Jesus asking "why have you forsaken me? I couldn't of done that there for I humble myself at his feet. I would of never give one of my sons life for a sinners sin. But he did. But that doesn't help your pain I know but you got to believe he needed her more than you did and there is a purpose behind it.But your mother isn't as far as you think she is. Did you not see her in your baby girls smile. Yes you did. She there..
Rene''
Rene''
@rene
2 years ago
1,195 posts
Yes, I know she does.Sometimes you have to just drop to your knees and scream "why did you take her!" I need her so bad! I need her still! And cry to you can't breath. It's not insanity it's moving forward. Until you take care of it, it's going to follow you.
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Rene''
@rene
2 years ago
1,195 posts
My blessing to you is peace
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@visitor
2 years ago
303 posts

I'm a Christian, although I was raised agnostic, and I have never stopped believing in God. But lately I've been very angry with him and questioning him, like "What are you thinking? How could you let this happen?"

It sounds like life kicked you hard and no wonder you're angry and hurt. That doesn't mean God doesn't exist, but if you're angry at him, I can certainly understand why. I think it's very normal to question God and faith and religion. I think it's part of the healing process.

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