I always knew I was some sort of 'path
updated by @kim4: 01/16/17 02:05:21AM
Congratulations on finding the light. There is a whole world of wonder just waiting for you.
I recently have found it as well (within the last year). But, it started from being so cod, as you put it. I spent an entire decade as a very cold individual without realizing that it was hindering my gifts. Didn't think I'd fit well into this category until it all decided to boil over without any control from me. All I can say is don't let it get to that point. lol
My best advice would be to let go, as much as possible, and don't overanalyze any of it. Research, check out the empath training on this website. and literally - be accepting to all that you experience.
Not read, but actually experience.
It's easier said than done, but all I can say being this far along of my own path. In the meantime, enjoy the ride. It's going to be an amazing experience. Be well!
It all makes sense to me. I was raised by 2 cops (controlling homicide detective and a narcissistic mother). I adore my parents, honestly, for the people that they are - I feel the need to say that when using those descriptions.
Anyway, desensitized is a word I know - emotions were just not allowed in my house. It was easier to turn them off than to deal with them until it became too late (around 30 yrs old).
After the explosion, I started with meditation. For scientific reasons and because my therapist recommended it. Hard at first, but helped big time and I definitely recommend it. I'm still learning other ways myself - maybe we can swap what we find?
As for being scared; yep, all the time, still fee that way. But, I realized that my nature to fight all of it rather than accept and be completely open to it makes it harder and a lot more scary. Truth is, now I'm excited of all the things I'm learning, even the scary stuff. Because I now know it's all for a purpose and I'm lucky and blessed to be a part of it.
The good outweighs the bad. I just had to go through a buncha bad to figure that out.
Don't fight it, Meditation helps. The guide here helps. And everyone on here, their posts, and advice help. You're not alone. And it's going to be better than okay.
I'm in the same boat. Spent most my life hiding from something and feeling awkward. Just recently, I ruled out all other possibilities and decided to embrace something I don't really understand. I am very logic driven and it took lots of obvious facts to get me to even consider something unusual.
As I've said, I have spend most my life blocking. Now I am trying to open back up and learn what I can about myself. I have told family and friends about my struggle to accept my new views and my new me. Most are supportive and seem open to listen.
I have anxiety for the first time in 15 years. I wonder how much is actually mine. My heart raced for two weeks and I could barely focus on anything. So now I am at a point where I have to realize how much emotions I take on and try not to project or manifest mine.
I think this should be fun. Blocking and ignoring didn't work and now I must try the path I been avoiding. Its not like we are doing something new, just new to us consciously. I have no clues but trust that I know more than I know and feel like I am equipped to handle this.