How do you break your cycle of upset? How do you stop the tape that keeps repeating in your head that replays the terrible scenes over and over again? How do you stop the shame and guilt when you believe that you were speaking your truth, which did not resonate with anyone else - and, not believe that you are the one who's weird, and is a freak of nature?
I've been crying on and off all day, due to an upsetting scene with my family. I have a ball in my stomach from all the muscular tension I feel. I just want to crawl into a hole and escape. I need an escape from my own feelings.
The thing is - I know all about deep breathing, yoga, meditation, going out for a walk, etc. and yet have no energy to bring myself to do any of it. What I feel like I want most of all is a best friend who gets me, and who simply lets me vent and cry on her shoulder. Who tells me that it's OK to have a crazy moment and to let it pass and that I don't have to beat myself up about it...who reminds me that I'm only human. That wanting to run away from a toxic situation is simply self-preservation, especially for an Empath. Who reminds me that I will recover from this, and that life will go on. And, also who reminds me that it is very important that an Empath honor their feelings at all times, despite what anyone else thinks...
Well, just typing this and putting the words out there has been a bit of an outlet. Thanks for listening, and offering any words you have to share.
updated by @evolving: 09/01/18 03:45:13PM