Thanks Alison, I do worry my posts are too long, I have this weird thing of over explaining myself, wandering off topic and getting lost somewhere in between, I can only ask `Bear with me I will get to a point eventually`
I also worry I sound a little crazy at times babbling away with what goes on in my head (Dang I have to live with me)
I read the mold link, I had not heard of it but, who knows, natural substances on this planet could well be turning toxic via coming into contact with the chemicals being pumped into the air, in our water supplies and all else. The newer the discovery the more likely the newer the cause (no different in all the latest `mental health conditions`) I mean the over excitable child labeled as Hyper and diagnosed ADHD - The hyper kids I went to school with would now be discussed and debated upon as to, is it `normal behaviour`?
- They are today all holding down decent jobs and have `normal` life styles - They just had personality.... today `this` needs medicating, the quiet child and a questioning `Whats wrong with them?`.... Its all wrong,
I can only express my Anxiety began at the beginning of the year, working with a lad with learning disabilities and basically becoming him absorbing every emotion.
I have put the initial twinges (intuition) down to a warning of some kind to get out but, ignored it till I had to when the anxiety consumed me.... (long and crazy story since cutting the tie I have had no panic attacks. So I still believe this was a him vs me situation
I have cut all ties since but, a few symptoms remain. I am getting better but, very affected and scared to be too open to anyone (esp around people other than close friends and family).
I also am finding it extremely difficult to ground myself, am awkward around people and, very aware I am a little odd in the presence of others. I feel as if I am not supposed to be here or that I am desperate to be somewhere else - I know a DR would diagnose me in an instant as being someone with social anxiety and borderline personality disorder because I fall into the diagnosis perfectly yet, I know my experiences and my guarding myself is truly what I am and, why I behave the way I do
- Paranoia (of others and picking up on them), inability to socialize (fearing picking up on others), no sense of who I am (picking up on others) , stressed (because of others, or because I dont want to be around them anymore) etc,,,, hell! I am an empath!! lol
Vaccinations - The Mercury connection I know has been linked to Autism and other learning disabilities- I read a file at work earlier this year concerning a young adult whose family were convinced he was a healthy little boy until his fourth year MMR then it all went pear shaped - became hyper, aggressive and angry (he still is today). Its a common story, although the medical profession refuses any such link and those that do are hounded and disgraced - Any investigation is thwarted yet the rise in Autism, learning disabilities, mental and, emotional health is at its highest it has ever been ever!. I truly believe there is an agenda but, run the risk of sounding like a conspiracy nut
We could open a separate discussion and talk about it there?
An interesting read yournewswire.com/why-dont-amish-children-get-autism/
The page links to the hep B vaccine as opposed to the MMR but, still the same thought process.
I do not know whether people believe they have ascension symptoms but, really it is a toxic overload?... My belief is, (and it is only my belief) if you truly feel you are, then you are... The drug, toxins, disruption could be a case of ascension being muddled with and, a warped confused opening and closing if that makes sense? - Many mental illnesses and `disorders` (hate the medical terminology) have the `spiritual awakening` connection and/or hearing voices, demonic forces and energies and such - unlike the supposed scientific revelation these people are plain and simple mad (which is really a we cannot explain or, the will not admit the cause)..... Whatever the cause? (toxins, meds, foods, trauma?) they are in tune to another realm or left open to allow energies through (both good and bad, this can only cause further severe mental breakdowns).
I dont know. I am just me and my head is full of trying to make sense of it all - Like I said I rely too heavily on intellect - I need to know things that reasonate, if it does not make sense I will do all I can to make sense of it. That is not to say I expect anyone to agree with what I make sense of though - Its like I cannot relax until it makes sense - Our health is indeed something we need look closer into, Even organic foods are dubious, the soils and such... chemicals in the air must be affecting everything natural - There are chemicals in absolutely everything, we are organic beings