So a little background. Been divorced for 3 years. He cheated and had a child with another women and denied it. I didn't speak to him until just recently. He had a fatality on one of his jobsites and I felt I had to reach out to him. Now I wish I hadn't. It kind of opened up old wounds and possibly feelings but I'm not really sure. He makes comments about how much he misses me and that things aren't good with the "other woman" now wife. And all I think is once a cheater always a cheater...at least with him. All I know is I get really stressed whenever I see him (I'm trying to give him a hand with his business).
OK - so then there is a man that I've known since I was 14. We were boyfriend/girlfriend until he went in the Army then subsequently Viet Nam. He told me not to wait - I didn't. Fast forward...after my divorce we tried having a relationship - twice - He has PTSD and I find it very draining to live with.
So I've been feeling that I need to give the boyfriend another chance. He really wants to be with me. A day doesn't go by that he doesn't tell me he loves me. And part of me loves him too. But first I'm afraid to give it another shot, second I "worry" what my ex will say.
Now this morning I'm thinking maybe I need to move away (like 2000 miles away) to get away from my ex (since he has always had such a hold on me). And possibly letting the boyfriend come with me. He has stated he wants to.
I can't even think straight! I reread this and I sound like a basket case. Does anyone have any advice??
updated by @karen: 01/10/17 10:20:10PM