The closest person to me at this point of my life (NT) seems to display symptoms of Autism Spectrum Disorder. She is in her early 30's but never diagnosed. Honestly, it has been very challenging for us to go a day without negativity, regardless, I care for her very much. I choose not to focus the discussion about her, rather my reaction to 2 of her actions today that really hurt and confuse me.
I was forced to move my belongings out of storage due to financial concerns. I have troubles asking others for help, especially lately as I have isolated myself from my friends and family for nearly 2 years. NT is the only person I feel comfortable asking to help/keep me company during the move.
NT and I completed the move of the minor/light weight items. I was faced with moving heavy items (bar, poker table, glass/mirrors, coffee table, etc) I asked NT to just provide moral support as I would not want her to hurt herself to move some meaningless 'things'. After 4 hours of driving/moving, I was mentally and physically drained as I started to do the heavy work. Suddenly, NT recieves a personal phone call, and decides to attend to her business. I communicated that I would love for her to stay to keep me alert, but ultimatly the decision was hers to stay or go. I lied and said i'll be fine on my own. When she decided to leave, I literally was alone. I became extremely sad and overwhelmed with emotions as I stared into my storage stall. I know in my heart, if the roles were reversed, there is no way I would have lefther under these circumstances. I reached out to one other person, but was denied do to his obligations to attend a party... anyways.
- After the move, exhausted, I visited NT's place. Infact, both of us were really tired. I started working on a mini project sitting on the floor next to her bed as she was sitting on the bed, and somehow managed to get small pieces of glass in both eyes. I panicked a little, and excitedly asked NT to get me the spray water bottle that's always in her room. With blurred vision, I noticed her typical facial expression which translates as "I'm comfortable in my spot on the bed, and I really do not want to get off of it for anyone or anything". I became agitated by this, she then raises her voice and claims the spray water bottle is empty anyways (I knew this was not true because over the last 1 year 8 months, that thing has been filled up by her the minute it runs low). Meanwhile, I'm struggling to splash water into my eyes with the water bottle near me. I can feel the glass in both eyes and quickly splashing as much water into them as I can. NT jumps out of her bed about 15 seconds after I first asked for her help. She brings me the water bottle (full to the tits by the way) thenangrilyinsists I rinse my eyes in the bathroom. She must not have been aware that I was temporarily blind at this moment and would not be able to find my own penis let alone the bathroom. I had managed to wash out the glass for those who may have become concerned. This morning when we had a minor disagreement, I pointed out that I noticed her suck her teeth when I asked for the spray bottle as I cried out in fear. I told her I knew she hesitated because she did not want to get up off of her bed to walk 8 feet. To this she became defensive, "big deal, it took me a whole 2 seconds to get it for you. You should acknowledge and thank me for getting the bottle for you, not get mad at me for notimmediatelyget it.
Perhaps the community's feedback will better resonate with her. Or perhaps the community's opinion is that I am being too sensitive???
updated by @enfp20: 01/31/17 05:52:00PM