I spend most of my time helping people and I do that through volunteer work. In the 3 years I have been there, I have been elevated to a position of power and respect just by being me. And because of this so many rely on me and need me and can't seem to function without my presence including the Director of the store I work at. I have to remind myself that unlike her or a few of the staff there, I am a volunteer so I can only give so much of myself, my time and energy before i begin to feel burned out and want to get away from it all. As an empath, I have many days like that where I need me time. You would think I'm one of several paid bosses at MECCA which everyone just assumes about me. Volunteers, customers and total strangers. Working there has made me into something more than I am.
As much as I love MECCA as an outlet for helping people, I've grown tired of being around a select group of people, once my friends and people I enjoyed being around. They eventually became people that take my time and energy for granted and not only expect me to be there all the time, but to help them out when they need it without so much as communication from them on any work related subject to me who needs to know things. I've brought it up time and time again that people need to communicate with me but apparently once I leave the scene, everyone's memories get erased and they go back to mistreating me and being disrespectful of my time there. I pretty much stopped giving so much of myself scaling back my hours to every other week since while being frustrated, I am also dealing with health problems. I'm recovering from two stress fractured feet. No one there so much as gives a crap about it. Friends I've made don't reach out via text or call, they don't ask how I'm doing when I do see them and they also go back to acting like nothing is wrong.
So I ask myself, why does this happen in the life of an empath? What is it that makes this happen? Why are we always needed to a fault and people we've grown to like and trust over the years begin acting cold and disregard us? I'm getting to understand light and what it is and how it brings people to us. People of all kinds and they recognize us as someone who can help them. But why in our personal relationships do we get treated like crap like we are not there? What is it about us that can turn a relationship from loving to pure detestable? In my life, I dunno who I can trust anymore based on their treatment of me. It just makes me feel used and abused for the number of years I have been a loving friend to them when they needed me and even when they didn't.
updated by @the-importance-of-being-jonny: 01/21/17 08:20:08AM