Hi everyone before I write I just want to say that this is very akaward for me to say and I will be doing a lot of ....'
Well I'll start from the beginning I need awnsers this feeling of confusion feels like it's eating me from inside. OK so... About not very long ago are neighbours accidently threw there ball over our fence and they came over at first I could not find it so my mum let them inside. My mum then Asked what school they go to you know normal mother to young children talk all of them were in primary except... For this one guy who said he went to the same school as me mum said oh (my name) goes to that school too he's a year below me in his in year 7 I'm in year 8 but I actually repeated a year so I'm meant to be in year nine well anyways today at school.. While I was eating recess with my friends... (Its hard for me go write this..) He was in a group of his friend and I saw him pointing towards my direction I looked away a bit embarrassed then continued eating then a few minutes later he walked past my group I was on the end of the sitting area and I heard his friend say to him"you can't shes year 8??!? I'm a year 8 girl what the heck??!?? He could of been talking about someone else but I literally can't stop thinking about him his my next door neighbour and to be honest whenever I hang out with my sisters friend who is the little girl next door our neighbour I always see him ride his bike with his little brother and he always comes to tell if she needs to come home or go check on her because his her big brother but I get really happy when I see him.
I also have been to his house with my sister to hang out with the little girl who is 2 years younger then my sister
Well anyways me and my sister had a conversation today and I asked who's your favorite neighbour friend? She said that little girl then she asked mine then she guessed my crushes who I have lost interest in a bit and I said no then she said the little girl and yeah I said no then she said her little brother nope then she said her other brother which is the dude who I'm talking about I still said no but I was happy she said his name because I wanted to try tell her how I was confused then she said his to old for you anyways this angered me my sister is only 10 and she is not attracted to the opposite gender or whatever who sexuality is yet but this made me a bit more uneasy and confused it hurts... I hate this confusion... I keep denying it... I keep thinking no I like (my crushname) not him bit really I have lost a lot of interest in my current crush. i can't stop thinking about him I am not sure if my feelings are real so I don't know I feel like I need approval for some reason? PLEASE HELP ME
updated by @whitejade: 01/13/17 04:11:30AM