Constant negative energy
updated by @legion: 01/19/17 06:48:52PM
Sorry to hear Legion - does not sound like a great life at the mo.
Generally I would pray for perfect protections - as much as necessary, possible, available and sensible.
Give the Divine (or Ultimate Good, as I call them) card blanche, as to the extend, amount and frequency of help you receive. Help to abolish suffering from your life! It might mean that armies of angels, or such, step in - that is fine. Love and joy always comes over suffering! It actually probably costs the Universe more energy to maintain suffering than natural love and happiness (- so no need to feel guilty about LOADS of help (where needed)).
Some healing processes can take time, so bear with them - you are NEVER forsaken (it is just this planet that can create the illusion that we are, but it is an illusion only)
Not to be clever - but if you have the money to pay for your father's bills - why not just leave and pay for your own place? Also research if you can get Goverment support, and or find charities that might provide help, safe house or similar. Safe houses are not necessarily just for physically abused people, but potentially emotionally abused ones as welll.
Love and Light - and praying your problems dissolve soon!!!
I find that sometimes words cannot change much, if anything they just up resistance. Sure they might sow seeds to germinate in future - but it might take a long time.
If words fail, or I feel I am just talking against a wall - I simply send healing, Light, Love (I ask to be connected to healing energies and allow them to pass through me for mine, or a healee's benefit). By letting healing energies pass through you, you give them, not your own (and with that potentially deplete yourself). Generally sending Light to a person or situation should only be done if that person, etc gives permission. BUT if that person harms you, sending healing becomes self-defense and permissible. One can also ask that any healing sent to only reach the intended receiver - if o.k. (and for the energies to simply go somewhere else, where needed and desired). I also ask for healings from/ through other sources, if necessary, possible, available and sensible. To be nice, I ask that any healings are as effortless as possible and, wherever possible, healing crisis kept at a minimum, or totally avoided....Also try to not restrict healing outcomes by trying to know the exact source of problem. If we, as healers, get too smart and restrict the energy flow by e.g. only sending to our assumed source A, but the actual sources are B and C (or in addition to A), then we might slow down healing processes. I find that plenty of negative energies have 'back-up' in the outside of people, so only freeing a person of neg energy, might not last long. New neg energies potentially flow in to replace the old.... (And do not forget to help yourself as much as needed too!)
Sounds like a jacked up situation, but one thing I've learn, just "coping" with something doesn't allow happiness. It's just coping, your not living.
I know you love your pops (we don't choose our parents), but he survived years without you, he will survive again without you. Be brave, be strong and make the best decision for YOU. I know you can.
Ever need an ear, msg me.
You must get away from him and don't even feel guilty about it. You absolutely cannot change him. You can only help yourself to be strong, and in doing that you might be an example for him. I'm so sorry you have had so much on you throughout your life. You sound highly intelligent and I'm sure you will do fine for yourself if you cut ties with him. He is destroying himself and will take you down with him if you don't get away. I'm sure you already know that, tho. So glad you got a good job!
And feel free to msg me as well. I've had some experience in this area.
you are very welcome. Hope whatever you are dealing with depletes soon!!!! The beauty of asking for all-encompassing healings (in the inside AND outside); for whatever makes us suffer in this life - is that we get the ultimate BOGOF effect! It might look like we only heal one person, but the actual healing might dismantle suffering energy constructs for many, many more.... )) (that does not necessarily make the suffering we feel less severe, but at least we can get bit of an uplifting martyr and hero kick out of it - lol)
great news! Hope it holds! There is nothing that cannot be healed, some healings just take longer than others... I am glad to hear you have a contingency! If beings get too toxic, it is better for us to help from a distance, rather than get the full brunt )
With my client work I sometimes get massage clients I apparently cannot stand! It is hard work touching them. But then if I feel into it more, what appears is strong feelings of self-loathing on their side. The dislike themselves so much, they project this out very heavily. It still makes it uncomfortable being around them, but rather than disgust, or even picking a fight, I feel sorrow and love for them. Even if such people smell ones pity and try to exploit it, that is just another layer of self-loathing on top, another attempt to push away.... It sounds as if you discovering upon similar avenues )
I'm so sorry you have had to deal with this legion. I am new here and feel very comfortable and at ease. I don't know how I can help but I have had similar issues in the past. Drugs and alcohol seemed the only way to cope for me. Don't ever hesitate to touch base with me or anyone else here. Stay focused, it will get better. Try to have a great day and peace.
I am happy that he is trying at last. It will be no simple or quick cure for a man who has been addicted for decades. Addictions take on a life and very strong energy of their own, like a separate being. (In fact, I suspect that there are other beings present among addicts...) The destructive atmosphere around many addicts is far beyond anything most people have ever experienced. It is close to the darkest realms of hell itself, and it is no easy feat to climb up out of there. Most addicts try many times before they stop and most don't unless they go through some type of serious life event. They also become masters at manipulation and deceit, even if it isn't in the nature of the person, it is the nature of the drugs. There is no end to the mind games that living with an addict will throw your way. What is his drug of choice?
I understand you wanting to help him. The fact is that each of us have to grow on our own terms and in our own time. We can't all reach enlightenment at once, although it would be wonderful if we could. I have to remind you that you need to stay strong yourself first. You have to learn what's good for you first. I know you need, and have always needed, a father. Some of never get to have that in the way that we need, no matter how hard we try and how much love we send out or how much we try to fix things.
Addicts do have great self-loathing, severe deeply rooted depression and are deserving of our greatest compassion. We are all connected in this universe.....yet we are also separate, sovereign individuals. Tolerating abuse or neglect of ourselves for the betterment of another is not something to be desired. Although usually when we help other it is also helping ourselves, it isn't always. Helping others without any desire to help ourselves is the ultimate goal, but only when you are not placing yourself in peril. Please protect yourself.
That's just my opinion based on 17 years spent trying to help someone that almost ruined my life and a lot of time around addicts of all sorts. I also had an emotionally absent father who I tried to get to love me for far too long. All situations are different, tho. Sometime we have to follow the darkest paths for the lessons we need, unfortunately. You can't walk another's path for them, only offer love and support, sometimes best at a distance. I hope it will work out for your dad, just please be aware of what you're into.
Sorry to have the negative outlook here. Having come through the whole martyr experience, I would like to spare anyone I can. I think most of us who come from dysfunctional homes have a desire to fix things and people. It is a lovely attitude held by beautiful souls... as long as you remember that you are number one!