Part of what you shared here can be tied into how many times we have been targeted and killed in previous lives for the very talents that brought us to this site. The soul memory is that it is unsafe to own these talents. The reality is that, for most of us, the reason we are here this time around is exactly to express those very same talents. In the 21st century those talents have rarely been more needed for the world and we have rarely been safer in using them.
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