So this is all a bit strange for me and just wanted to chat to some people who might be in a similar boat.
For the lastfew months I've been feeling really strange within myself.
I've always drawn animals tome but Iseem to have starteddrawing very needy, problematic peopleto me. Its draining as every single one of my friends (bar the ones I've been friends with since school) come to me with any problem they have, expecting me to resolve it/make them feel better. One of my friends has told me a few times she likes to be around me as she likes my energy and feels refreshed after spending time with me. She is very a very dramatic and angry personand feels that I bring positivity to her and chill her out a bit. But I leave feeling drained and mentally fatigued.
My boyfriend, who I have been with for 3 months, is going through a lot mentally - due to previous substance abuse and generalinsecurity problems from past relationships. He is going through paranoia, anxiety, depression, and a lot of confusion. I have also been experiencing this for the last couple of months and have had no idea why I've felt so low.
He commented the other day that he feels a lot more chilled out around me, then separately commented about how I seem to draw people and animals to me - he said its like I'm a magnet that people just want to be around me. The combination of what he's said and how I've been feeling led me to google....a lot of research later I have ended up here.
Now what I'm not sure about is that a lot of what I've read I can 100% relate to, I felt like I was coming home when I read it. But on the other hand there are a few things that don't ring true - I don't get overwhelmed in large crowds and I don't necessarily 'feel' other peoples emotions, I can tell how people are feeling and I know aspects of their personality without them saying anything but I don't think I feel what they are feeling.
I have always blocked people and my own emotionsout - since I was a child, I have never let anyone in or let myself feel emotions. I have always drank quite a lot as a tool to block things out but there's no real reason why - I had a lovely upbringing and have a lovely family.
The conclusion I'm slowly reaching is that I may be an empath and have blocked all of this out for years and years. The difference now is that I am truly in love (for the first time) and my boyfriend loves to talk and 'go deep' and has really encouraged me to open up....hence the shift in my brain.
But - I'm not sure ifI'm clutching at straws and am finding answers because I want to find them, if that makes sense... I'm not sure that it is though as reading all of this yesterday made me feel like I wasn't actually going mental lol!
Also - it scares me slightly.
Any thoughts at all on this would be greatly appreciated
updated by @christinab: 10/23/17 10:57:46PM