Been a while since I've been around, sorry! I've been caught up in life's work. However, lately I've found myself to be in quite a predicament.
For a while, I've felt jealous of my friend who has been surrounded by friends and they want to hang out with him and like his facebook posts and support his music. For some reason, people see my negative posts over my positive posts (most of the stuff i post) and don't want to be around me anymore even though they don't say it, i've noticed for months i rarely see my friends anymore but they hang out with other people. It very much hurts me and I've felt very sad and lonely. I feel love is an essential part of my life, there are many people I miss.
Sometimes I have breakdowns, these panic episodes where i get dramatic and scare people away because of my bitterness when really im misunderstood. I'm just hurt and lonely. I want what my other friends have, that's all . I just am sick of being alone all the time outside of work. I miss my friends. A simple problem with a simple fix and yet it's hard. In this area of my life i feel confused and misguided. Help?
This IS an empath problem, I'm just trying to figure out how? Meaning, theres something you're all aware of that I'm not, but I know it's related somehow. Just going to take that right person to point it out. What should I do? I kind've freaked out online and well basically said this:
"I'm starting to lose faith in myself as a person. I might as well be more of a hermit than I already am. v_v i envy someone. I got issues, blah blah. I know. Just ignore this, carry on. Sometimes, I wish I was normal and had a normal happy life like anyone else. Sometimes I really hate myself, certain things. I'm alone for a reason, not like that's ever going to change."
Sadly, this is the truth. I don't like it, but I have been losing faith in some areas of myself, not everything though. I just feel people will forget me and move on if they havent already. I'm probably being unrealistic and dramatic, I hate that about myself and I hate being sensitive. I know it's becuase I'm an Empath. I apologize for this negativity, I'm just not myself right now. Help?
updated by @realfaction: 01/31/17 11:43:59PM