hy to all....
I tryed to write a post so many times....I always deleted it 'cause I couldn't even sort it on a post what I wanted to say.
I read daniel's post now...and this is what brings me to this post what I will finally send.
As you all can read , my first language isn't english, so please excuse my mistakes.
I am 23 years old. I started to become aware of my "gift" 4 years ago when I started a therapie because of depressions.
I went throught the whole children things everybody is explaining... beeing different...got bullied all over... beeing alone. I don't have many friends...and if I am about to get more, I have to leave. When I am in rooms with people who's energy is to strong for me...I faint when I don't leave the room.
As daniel posted as well....I so many times feel just lost!
I don't want to be an empath! honestly...I really dont!
It's difficult, it's hard....it is just ....hard.
I am helping so so many people...but the only person I can't feel...the only person I have no clue about ...the only person I can't help with my "gift" is myself!!!
I am so overwhelmed by everything I feel. I just want to hide somewhere ...I just want once NOT to feel anything.
I know I sound very depressed right now...I am not allways like this.
Many people in my life told me....You are so wise....you are so young and so wise... you are very special and wonderful...ect ect....
I am working with energy....I am meditating...breathing... protecting myself with techniques....am wearing healing stones to protect me from others energy but still .. I switch from insane happyness to insane sadness....take others emotion just by looking into their eyes.... and I kinda have the feeling that I am just out of control even tho I am doing so many techniques to protect myself.
So please, I am asking you....all you experienced empaths out there in the world
HOW DO YOU CONTROL YOUR EMOTIONS?
HOW DO YOU SELECT YOURS OUT OF OTHERS?
HOW DO YOU NOT FREAK OUT EVERY DAY?
I know everybody who is writing here in these discussions have up and down's isn't it?
Please tell me that I am not the only one who thinks so many times "wow , well done me... you have your gift under control, you can do so many good things with it: this is just wonderful "...and a little bit later the world breaks down again cause you just quickly talked to somebody with pain.
thank you for reading
and sorry for the desperate post
updated by @conny: 02/12/17 11:22:58PM