My very first impression was that you have big dreams but fear going after them because you don't feel worthy of them. They slipped in right next to you every time so I believe that you are not reaching out to fill your own potential. That was just the first thought that came to me after reading your post!
Interesting! Do you currently have any books published? And is your agent open to reading new authors? I have a book that I self published but would love to find an agent and a publisher at some point. Keep writing, because if you're like me, that is a huge dream. The seven ships could be seven books! Good luck!