For the past week or two, I keep having dreams that I buy a big fancy house that is abandoned and run down. Each dream, the house gets bigger and more overwhelming. Last night the house I dreamed we bough had so many rooms I couldn't count them. It was, like the others, a beautiful grand historic house that was abandoned and left to ruin. It was fixable, but I was overwhelmed with what needed to be done. Also the one in my dreams last night also seemed to be haunted by a little girl who had died in a fire there that she accidentally started a hundred or so years ago.
In these houses there are bats and owls and animal droppings, and spider webs everywhere. All the houses seemed to have furniture left in them all kinds of things that were lovely in their day, but were left to rot. Most of them were fixable, but at considerable time and expense.
I think it has something to do with healing childhood wounds. We went to a family reunion recently and I found out, unfortunately, that an unhealthy close family member's chronic bad treatment of me since childhood is at the root of a lot of my anxiety and a lot of my other issues I don't want to go into here. I wonder if these dreams mean I'm overwhelmed with what needs to be healed and feel like I can never be free of the baggage this person has dumped on me, because that's how I feel in real life, or is it telling me something more?
At the same time, the dreams feel hopeful. They are bigger houses and each one beautiful. I don't know exactly what it all means.
updated by @sarah: 02/23/17 01:54:26PM