Ok, so, as usual, after weeks of dreamless nights, a strange dream stroke last night: incredibly vivid, as usual, but absolutely unrelated to what happened in the last period... or maybe this is just the facade. But I haven't searched pictures with Barn owls for, what, half an year or more?
So I was in a my high-school's yard, but A LOT modified, much greener, as if it was placed in the most beautiful susburbs of a city close to a forest (european ones), but this was only the front landscape. Because I was walking around the yard and when I turned back, I saw a collegue bringing me 2 white with brown spots Barn Owls that were tied (their wings and legs) and told me "They are Huhurezi" the name for Barn Owls in my language and I vividly heard and remembered their names. Then I suddenly realised how desolated the landscape looked behind me, and there was a storm coming, and the sky was so grey and the streets were desolated and there was more Concrete than green areas, in contrast to the forest that was ahead of me.
So I took the 2 Barn owls and hid them in a bush, because I had to go... but then I returned, scared that somebody might find them. And then the fear stroke me, when I saw them again, and I couldn't get rid of one thought "The owls will die, if I don't take care of them...". And I took the one that seemed rather sick, but was so strange and had a unusual presence, and I tried to keep it in my hands and stuff like that, but people (collegues) started to gather to see the strange Owl, and wanted to touch it, and then somebody called me, but I also knew that they were harming the owl, as it needed my energy... but someone convienced me that it will be ok, and I left with the same thought "It will die..."
Then all got foggy.
Then I returned again to the garden, and there was nobody left in the garden, but only one girl, the same that handed me the Owls tied with rope,and the landscape got even more desolated, and she told me thatthe one I left had died, and it showed it to me and said "Look in what unworthy and shamefull position it died" (the same words I remember from the dream)and it was all black, instead of white with brown spots, and it looked horrible, dead at the roots of the same tree, like trying to climbe into it, and I started to cry and accuse myself, because, once again, "I knew what I had to do but decided to follow something else instead." -the same thoughts I had during the dream-
But then I saw the second owl, identical, but a little bit smaller, still alive, breathing, but still tied, somewhere next in front of the tree, and I realised it was not intelligents or special as the first one I chose but I've lost, but it could mean a new start...
And it ended.
So what could the 2 White Barn Owls binded with rope symbolically mean, and the death of the first one 'I chose'?
p.s: sorry for any possible grammatical mistake!
updated by @kate: 05/16/17 04:17:16AM