What sort of world is this?
I fell in love was it really that bad?
She was indescribable, beautiful
But I don't think they'd understand
I sat and wondered
Is thislife reallyfor me?
They view meas a disgrace
But whycan't they see
It was an accident, I didn't mean to
I fell in love with the wrong gender
Isit really that bad to feel the feelings I do?
Am I mentally ill, am I a sinner?
She doesn't feel the same?
The pain in my chest, it won't go away
I lover her, no words can express it
I sit and think about her everyday
She's straight, it can't be helped
What I feel is unnatural.A sin
So tell me God if I'm in the wrong
Why would you do such a thing?
Why have I been made this way?
The one I deeplylove, doesn't love me
The pain is so strong, what is the point?
I should be stronger and take responsibility
She touches and loves men
But she'd never caress me
I long for her touch, her love
But she rejects my affinity
We were close friends, inseparable
But I felt something stronger
I felt torn when we were apart
I craved her presencefor longer
I'm disgusting, repulsive and deserve to be rejected
She'd never love me for me
Shewould never overlook my gender
It justwasn't meant to be
Each night I'd slowlycry myself to sleep
Slowlydying inside with every breath
Maybe one day she'll return the feelings
But then reality brings the thought to death
She's found someone, someone better
It ruinedme internally, I began to wither
Maybe there is no hope for me in love
Am I destinedto repeat mistakeslike my family?
I don't believe in truelove, just hurt
The Last night I used a shining sword
To cutmyself apathway to heaven, or hell
Please forgive me lord, if I can even be forgiven
This life, This world,with corrupt societies
Nothing to live for and not worth living
So much hate, ignorance and arrogance
I'm too sensitive, but every end has a new beginning
updated by @yin-guest: 03/04/17 08:38:32AM