I wasn't sure in which group I should ask this question. This is one of two.
In early November I lost my cat Midnight. It was very traumatic. I haven't had a full-time job since January 2009. I wanted to take her to the vet and my friends and cousins ignored my pleas for money. She died of chronic kidney failure and an infection, possibly pneumonia.
I think Midnight was my best friend. Whenever I needed reassurance I knew I could go to her and be loved back. She was a sweet, intelligent, affection cat, always ready to be petted. Lying on my legs was one of her favorite things to do.
I haven't been right since. I still find it extremely difficult to relax and extremely difficult to sleep. I had a great deal of trouble getting over her sister's death ten years ago from the same disease. I wonder if I have such trouble because my cat's spirit is nearby and I feel it. I have experienced times when I thought my past cats have visited me, most notably when I had the H1N1 virus. One cat came and curled up next to my back. Another cat laid half on me. Yet I couldn't see either one.
updated by @debbie-winchell-loving-dove: 06/07/17 07:36:18PM