By Mike Simpson-Rogers, 2016-12-01
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By Pisces_Aquarius, 2016-11-20
I've known about my empathy since I was twelve. I may not have known the term, but I was very much aware of my abilities. I would dream of disasters as they were happening. I could sense when those I loved were about to go through something rough. I would see demons/negative spirits basically anywhere I went. Most of my experiences were very negative or frightening, but I was cool as a cucumber throughout my adolescence. I was a wonderful listener, a shoulder to lean on, someone who always tried to make people smile. I would show off some of my abilities throughout middle school and high school, becoming known as the high school "mystic." I was innocent, kind, and very in-tune with the emotions and thoughts of everyone around me.
The big thing here is that I kept it all secret from my family and home-community.
I was raised in a more radical Christian community. I am Romanian and was born in America a day after my parents arrived in Arizona -- escaping communism in Romania. I say radical now, but my whole life, I never thought of it that way.
I did what the other girls my age were doing, when it came to church. I was at church twice every Sunday, once on Wednesday, Thursday, and sometimes Tuesday. My uncle is head of the Romanian Pentecostals of America, so he's basically the big kahuna. Everything I did seemed to have extra eyes watching because I had a reputation to keep up for my family.
When I was twelve, my dreams of demons and hell that started when I was somewhere younger than 7 entered reality. I was seeing things everywhere I went. I was "talking" to spirits. I was having premonitions. It came to a point where I was really seeking support so I told my parents that I was seeing things. They told my uncle who made a prayer request in my name, and I spent the next couple years being ridiculed by my fellow churchgoers. I felt like it was the biggest mistake of my life. I drew deeper into myself. I would get home from school and lock myself in my room and spend hours in my own mind as I watched the flame of a candle flicker, or the glow-in-the-dark stars on my ceiling go in and out of focus. I wasn't just spacing out -- I was getting to know myself. I was listening to and feeling the presence of the spirits around me and really tuning into the universe. I would have conversations with God/the Universe, and more often than not, I would go to sleep completely at peace, regardless of all the dark I was experiencing.
Since church wasn't helping, I turned to the one thing that had immediate answers -- the occult. I was reading oracle cards, though I avoided tarot cards because I felt they pulled from negative "forces" rather than positive. I was reading books on Celtic magic because for some reason, I was always especially drawn to the Celtic heritage -- though I'm Romanian. Hiraeth is one sense I am most familiar with and it always comes when I see or hear anything having to do with the Celts. I sometimes wonder if I was a Celtic priestess in a past life or something.
Throughout all of my self-discovery and years of enlightenment, I was inundated with severe guilt. There I was, a Christian, related to the big guy in America, and I was doing what they would deem witchcraft. How could I call myself a Christian while doing this?
When I was 17, I met a Romanian man who showed interest in me. I was 17...at the age that most in the church were expecting me to get married soon. Most girls in the church are getting married between the ages of 18 and 20, and if they are single longer than that, parents start worrying (Think "My Big, Fat, Greek Wedding).
All of my guilt, mixed with the expectations of marriage, was the beginning of the end of my "supernatural" experiences. I was married a year and a week after meeting this man and took up the life of a Romanian stay at home mom. Though experiences didn't come to a screeching halt, they did stop for the most part. I stopped seeing faces every time I closed my eyes. Premonitions were extremely rare.
The marriage turned sour almost immediately, but I made a vow and would hold my end of it. I worked really hard to keep my husband happy. I sacrificed my friendships, my writing(my one thing I would do for my own self-release and comfort), I tried to be the Romanian wife and mother I was expected to be. Husband was very difficult to keep happy, though. He was a narcissist and that's basically the worst companion for an empath and, unfortunately, the type of person empaths are most drawn to.
I sacrificed so much of myself that I lost most of myself. I was so drained all the time...drained, and then had negativity thrust on me almost every day. This drainage manifested into physical illnesses.
Stomach and intestinal ulcers turned into bleeding ulcers.
Heart palpitations and chest pain.
And so much more...
My blood eventually had the consistency of molasses and I was warned on two different occasions, 6 years apart, of the likelihood of a stroke. I had a "warning stroke" when I was around 21 or 22. Two doctors pressed me to leave my husband, but I resisted. I couldn't do that. My actions would be judged most harshly because of my family. I wouldn't be able to support myself...I never finished college because I had no support and was raising kids and running a house essentially by myself...and I still wasn't doing it "good enough."
I was literally killing myself by staying in a relationship where the man couldn't change, but demanded I give up even more of myself for him. But there was nothing left to give up. He had my material possessions, control over my emotions, control over my actions. I had nothing else to give and through that emptiness and consistent attacks on my psyche, my body created an auto immune disease, which I just now have finally been diagnosed with.
I told myself for years that it was my own fault. I wasn't doing my job well enough. I was trying to make "me time" when I wasn't supposed to have "me time." I was trying to hold onto my identity when my community told me, "you're a wife and mother now. Your identity is your family." I had times when I tried to start writing again, against my husband's wishes.
I spent a massive amount of time in my life stripping away what I could, giving it to someone who could never have enough -- right down to the point of stripping away my own body. My hair and skin flaked away -- psoriasis. My eyes were glazed with exhaustion and defeat. Adrenal exhaustion. Blood was leaving my body through any exit it could find. Ulcers.
Almost eleven years of psychological abuse and neglect later, I had enough. I left.
Since then, I have found someone else. Someone I didn't think could possibly exist. We had an entire continent between us and only the internet and phone to stay outwardly connected. But the connection we had inwardly was incredible. He would have visions of what I was doing and how I felt. Typically at times when I was lonely or scared. We could sense when the other was holding our tongue on a topic we didn't think we could handle talking about, and we'd be able to push and support each other as we opened up about it. It was a connection I had fantasized of having with someone since I was a kid, but assumed it was only in stories.
He is in almost every way the male version of me. We think the same, have had several almost identical experiences, the same goals and values in life, even the same parenting style. He does not drain me in any sense of the word, but instead, he fills me with positivity and hope. I enjoy every day, night, and the time in between. He's helped me rebuild myself from what I thought I lost through my marriage. I'm me again and I love life again.
What I lost in my physical body, I have slowly regained as this man has supported me and loved me. What hair I lost, grew back. What palpitations ruled the hours of my day have disappeared. I sleep and I dream good things. I laugh every day and feel completely energized on a spiritual level -- more than I ever have.
It's amazing what life throws at people for them to grow. I spent most of my life resisting the question of "why?" I didn't feel I had the right to question God/the Universe, but the past 2 years are now laid out in front of my mind's eye, and I can see just how things in life led up to this phase in my life. The Universe was thrown into the air and settled around me like morning dew on grass and everything is just sparkling with life and potential now. With purpose.
I'm a good mom. I was a good wife, and will be one day again, I'm sure. I have no grudges against anyone. Not my church who stopped supporting me when I left. Not my family who only now is starting to show vague flitters of thought toward me and my health and happiness. Not my ex husband who I hope will find someone who he can fulfill and be fulfilled with. I know who I am and I know the Universe is with me as it always has been.
Life is a journey, and mine has only just begun.
By EliseLebeau, 2016-11-20
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By EliseLebeau, 2016-11-10
The groups were migrated to Forum Categories. Everything is in one place!
You can find them here:http://empathcommunity.eliselebeau.com/community/forum
Or click on "Forum" in the top menu.
By Debbie Winchell (Loving Dove), 2016-11-01
I am not sure about the new Empath Community site. I don't know how to find the groups. I'm not sure if I'm posting a message in a blog right. I couldn't even find any information on it.
By Rose3, 2016-10-24
You can't choose who you love.Someone I feel like being an empath makes me love everyone and everything.So I fall so hard when I do.I met another empath I starting to hate meeting them because I always seem to fall head over heel for one.It's like feeling you emotions then their emotion and it doubles.I cut the ties of my emotions for him so I'm better but I feel tethered to him.He's twisted though says he loves all his girls and he can't choose favorites which is why I ran away from the situation.He shares himself with everyone he is selfish wants everyone.The only reason I know that is because I can feel his emotions which he isn't used to.We were so n sync I could feel him and he could feel me.It's like we didn't need words.I just wasn't going to be another lover and I wasn't going to share him with everyone.That makes me selfish too.Honestly neither of us were ready for anything a relationship with an empath will never happen to me not in this life maybe the next.Honestly I don't really need advice I just need to vent with people like me.People who may actually understand whats it's like.I have already had 3 encounters with empath males.They always end in a train wreck.I fall for them instantly I never chose it I avoid them like the plague and it hits me like a runaway train.
Might as well let this out the first one was bad empath. That was a darker time in my life.He manipulated everyone around him including me.He say and I quote.I want your hate.When he said that I ran.He was addicted to drugs and got married and didn't tell me...Tried to use me to cheat on his wife he didn't need my help though.
The second one this was more promising.He was an addict who was a year clean.He found Jesus and we connected.Then he dropped a bomb and said he was getting married and ran off from the church and never told me anything.Worse part we worked together he quit when I was off for two days.I told him I feel in love with him he was the reason I was able to control my emotion. The love he had around him he helped me to control that emotion.I sadly think he is an addict again or running away empaths are good at running.He didn't like the fact that I could tell when he was lying and read his emotions.
My third and hopefully my final empath love.A sweet guy who cares about everyone and pretends to love them all equally.He would only allow himself to love me to a point.I'm an empath and so is he.I know there was something more but he would't let go so I didn't either.
I hope I never meet another empath in person again.I take all that love and another rejection.Clearly I'm not ready for a serious soulful commitment .One thing I will say I see why people are so drawn to us.
By IntuitiveDreamer, 2016-10-16
He passed away 1 month ago, and he keeps showing in my dreams, but I usually have the need to decode the dream into separate parts and I knew exactly what he wanted to say today.
He was dressed in a black tuxedo, his mustache was dyed black and I know he would've done it for a Funeral because he was always very trendy and elegant, he was well known for it.
My grandmother is very sick and I feel like he´s announcing that she´s about to pass soon.
By IntuitiveDreamer, 2016-10-12
I've learn to read the Clues that appear in my Dreams, over the past year, and it has been quite interesting.
I have been looking for a girlfriend for months, and I recently had a dream, that I met a girl at a mall. she was pretty and shy, I didn't know her name...I saw her face but it was pretty blurred out, all I know is that she was attractive.
The way I can read clues (correct me if im wrong) is: I take different objects in this dream and put them in separated containers (in my head) then I search for their meanings separately, interpret them and thats how I put the pieces back together like a puzzle. Am I the only that does this?
By Mythical Spark, 2016-09-27
I guess I should say hello and give a few words about myself and why I'm here.
I guess I should say that just someone who's looking to learn something about themselves, I guess that's why I'm here. I think that I may be an empath or have some empath tendencies. I'm not certain on these things and I'm not totally sure if I believe in it but I like to keep an open mind on different possibilities and I do naturally tend to find rational explanations before I except supernatural/paranormal explanations for things but I have found myself questioning whether or not I may be an empath.
The other week I randomly came across something online about empaths. It was an article about empaths, their traits/characteristics and it made me think about myself and my past a little bit and as I read the list of these traits and characteristics I recognized some of them in myself and the natural tendencies that I have and how they've been a part of me during my lifetime.
There have been a few incidents, some more mundane and some that seemed somewhat out of the ordinary, that I have called back from memory in my life that seems to corroborate my current questionings of being an empath.
One memory was of a time when I used to drink with other people in a local bar and I had put on some music on the jukebox. After a while someone said that I was seemingly able to judge the mood of those who were also in there and put on music that would fit perfectly to the mood of the bar at the time. I think this may have happened a few times.
There have been times when I have been able to gauge general opinion on things, even when I hadn't really spoken to anyone on the topic.
This one's a bit of a bigger thing that happened and might be coincidence. There was a time that I had a really pleasant dream. It happened many years ago and I remember spending time with a beautiful girl. It wasn't anything sexual or anything like that but there was a general feeling of love and it was filled with a really loving air and we were mostly just hanging out and eating and I was lost in the general loving feeling that I felt being with her. I woke up and I was still feeling such great feelings at the time. About a week later I was out and had some places that I needed to go to as I had a couple of appointments that I needed to attend to. As I was walking down the road to one of these appointments I noticed a girl walking up in the other direction. We had caught each others eye as we got closer and we smiled as we walked past each other and I could have sworn that she was the same girl from my dream. I know that I should have said something to her at the time but I guess that I was a bit too shy about it.
I know that it could all be a coincidence or just my mind playing tricks on me and is just my imagination but at the time it was something that struck me as strange and still hangs in my memory.
There were other things during my life but I need to try to remember them and they seemed to happen a lot during my time at school
A few traits that I have that might suggest that I'm an empath:
- I prefer my own company and have been at my happiest in my life when I'm alone.
- I really dislike crowded places and I really like to avoid them when possible.
- I feel sorry for those lower down the 'social chain' and sympathize with those who are downtrodden.
- People have been known, including several strangers, to talk to me about their problems or life and some have said that they feel perfectly comfortable in doing so.
- I feel naturally drawn to supernatural/paranormal things and different spiritualities, even if I don't particularly believe in them I still feel a sense of wonder and curiosity.
- I have a creative side and an imagination. I've always enjoyed things like daydreaming and fantasies, writing, photography. I can't draw or paint at all but I do like the joy of writing and imagining various worlds and stuff. I also like video games such as Simcity and the like and the sandbox modes for freedom to create cities.
- There have been times when I get quite bored and I try to find things to interest me and to keep my mind entertained.
- I really hate liars and lying in general but if it's necessary, like telling a white lie then I guess I can forgive, given the situation.
- I hate any kind of violence or acts of cruelty.
- I really can't stand self-absorbed or people without any kind of self-awareness, or narcissists.
- I'm often aloof and very distant from people, even with those close to me; close in relationship and as in close proximity. I think that I'm naturally a very private person and I naturally keep people at a distance, mentally and often physically.
- I am prone to depression and anxiety, socially and generally. I have found that I am oddly selective about those who I am comfortable around and not socially anxious with. I can't really explain it.
- There have been times that I've had emotions or general feelings that I can't really put any words to other than 'positive', 'neutral' or 'negative'.
These are some of the traits that I currently recognize, maybe there are more but I haven't picked up on them.
A bit more about myself is that I'm not a part of any religion and I've never been Christened or whatever the ritual is for making people a part of each religion is. I was never brought up in any religion and pretty much all my family are non-religious/atheists or agnostics I think but I can't really speak for them as I'm not entirely sure on exactly what each family believes. I'd say that I'm an agnostic myself in the sense of not really knowing if there is a god/deity/higher power or not, or at least I'm not the one for current or past concepts of them and I do think that it's a natural part of the human mind to anthropomorphize things and that shows in people's general concept and idea of gods and higher beings/power and I feel that a lot of religions seem to be very earth- and human-centric but that's just my opinion and I really don't know what any god or higher power might be like and I guess there's an idea on that as there people.
Even though I'm not religious but I do have a strange fascination for them, especially ones outside the normal realms of spirituality and I have done a little reading on other religions and new-age stuff and it generally interests me. I'm not saying that I necessarily believe in any of it. It just fascinates me when hearing about various legends and myths. I don't know why it's just something that interests me generally, maybe it just stirs up my imagination.
By Renee2, 2016-09-25
I had two panic attacks today. I have been having them more frequently again lately. There are many factors, and often times there are obvious reasons. Today, though, it seemed they came out of nowhere. I was thinking about my history of anxiety, and my worst panic attacks throughout the years were while I was on the computer while the computer was near a TV that was on. I currently have my computer sitting in front of the TV. This is temporary until I get a new router and can move the computer back into my office.
Anyway, I was wondering if anyone else is sensitive to energy from electronics.