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Again, in the quiet of the day, I hear the call. Today seems to be a day for looking back and seeing spirit. Not the spirits of the dead, but the divine spirits of all. I used to invision this man up in the sky someone looking down at me, watching over me and protecting me. When I started stripping away my old belief system for my new one, I seemed to have stripped that away as well. Though I know a divine force still walks with me, it has lost shape, substance, no longer a father, but an energy that is everywhere, all at once. Though I feel it, I no longer see it. The mystery that was once sacred feels, somehow , lost if the mesh of all energy. Trying to define the divine is no longer possible because I see it in all things, and many times in nothing. The Angels voices seems quiet. It's not dark in this state, but I do feel alone. I see the miracles as they manifest in the mundane, so I know he is still with me, but it seems different now. I don't really have alot of time to myself. The quiet is a rare commodity. I have no doubt this is a big part of the problem. I have a few of those moments now, so I wanted to try out my new deck, Enchanted map, so below will flow more like a conversation then anything,lol, but my reading none the same. Traveling the veils in search for some hidden meaning to all the insanity in my life.

The three cards that were thrown at me

Magic stream- this card is in referance to my magickal side. How I am seeking magic in the mundane. I am told to remember the roots of where I come from, not in this lifetime, but the roots of my soul. The place where desire and imagination brings forth the magic. I haven't tapped into my magickal side much in a long time. It's a path I have wandered away from, though my very core desires it. I'm being told to remember the pools of avalon, the sacred healing pools that can only be accessed from within. It's time to heal from the wounds this reality has given to me, which can only be done through more magickal means for magick is who I am. '

Come together- This card in this reading represents balance. In all aspects. I need time for work, I need time for family and I need time to rejuvinate from everything. Responsibility lays heavy on me, but it wears me thin. I feel unapappreciated for all I do at work, yet I continue to give so much of myself to it. I spend so much time and energy with little to no success at my job. It eats away at me and robs me of almost everything. Work is supposed to be that, a means of living, not my life.

One ring circus, this card in this reading represents chaos and being trapped in that chaos. Which is my life, it get's pretty nuts,lol. Though I think I work best in chaos as I don't have time to think. I have to make quick decisions, which rely mostly on instinct. It's when I have to much quiet time is when I think to much. But I know I need the quiet to slow me down a bit.

Making a choice- I know that it is time to start making some choices in my life. Making choices have never been my strong point unless it was done through time constraints and necessity. I've heard people say things like, "what do you want to do with your life? What are your goals? I don't really have any. I just kind of go with the flow and when things that are out of my control come along, I make quick decisions and that it. If I start thinking about what I want to do, I just get overwhlemed and talk myself out of it anyway's. I used to have dreams. I still do to a point, but I think I lost hope in fulfilled dreams when we had to leave California, when we had to leave my home. We moved here to Arizona setteling for a dream to afford a home and just raise the kids in a descent area. Somewhere were we had enough money to do things we wanted to do, like actually take a vacation. That dream was also crushed when my husband got injured. Life has completely changed for all of us and now the financial responsibility falls mostly on me to make sure our rent is taken care of, food on the table, and the bills get paid. We have been stuck in this for almost four years now. We have adjusted in our new roles, and we are still close, but it doesn't change our situation. I can't afford to make bad choices. I can't afford to chase dreams. I often wonder how others do it. They took a risk and many win, but many also loose and it's not a risk I can really take. I have come to the conclusion that I may not like my options, but I can make choices, but I have chosen the path of resresponsible decision making. If I take risks, it will be my family who suffers. Which boils back down to only make rash decision based on time and need. So because I have choosen this road, we will always remain here until I make a different decision.

Rock bottom and storm fields, easy one, which is what I always do, I wait until we have no options left but one which is always in the midst of a storm. Which another one is arising. In this reality, I gather alot of stregnth through thunderstorms, they charge me, as in every aspect of my life. It's the storms that change me from mundane to survival. I work best in this. I have a feeling this is about my job. If I don't change something soon, I have a feeling that fate will. I already feel the strain of my current job, these cards are telling me that it isn't going to get easier until I am on the right path. I've known for awhile my time here is ending, at this job, and I'm beginning to realize that nothing will change unless I change this and if I don't, they will. Life isn't meant just to survive at a dead end job. Jobs aren't meant to consume you. I have dreamt of working from home and doing readings online for awhile. The risk financially just seems to high though. I know they are pushing me though, because this job is out of alignment with my path. I am seeing august, and august of last year, is when this job almost ended for me then. I felt at the beginning of the year that this area would change during the summer, July or August.

I asked for more and everything went blank. I guess this is all I need to know for now. p

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Gaining perspective


By Angel, 2014-05-21

I often dream of a place that is not in this world. In this land each sunrise truely is a new beginning filled with endless possibilities. Through the veils I am granted the ability to see glimpes, yet it never seems truely attainable. In my dreams am I allowed to enter the doorway, but in waking hours it comes to serve only my memory of what I no longer have. Some would call this place heaven. I have no name for it. I just know that it is home. They mystical land where healing waters flow naturally. Up high in the mountains lies the sacred land of the Gods. Time doesn't really exist here. I've carried this place in my heart ever since I can remember. The visions serve the purpose of not forgetting. I feel it calling to me, becoming me to follow.

I have been told many times to "remember". Is this what I am to remember? As a human, I feel bound by the laws of the earth, but as a Mystic, I have no bounds. I am truly free. It makes we wonder why I would leave such a place to come here. I know I have come here for a specific reason, I have spent my entire life trying to find that reason. I have traveled through many veils, some filled with light, but many filled with darkness and dispair. One that I would not have access to if I were to come back home, for such a place does not exsist in the realm of lost souls.

When I was younger my desire, my passions were strong. I have felt lost for some time now. I traveled the path of self discovery, but the longer I am on this path, the more lost I become. I am constantly plagued with the feeling that I am wasting time, not fulfilling my purpose, wasting to much time on seeking answers. My desire for knwoelge seemed to overshadow my innoscence, and with that knowledge, the light slowly began to find. Some would call this a reality check, but in this depths of my soul, I know that the reality I live in in this world is but only one of a million realities, none of it real anyway's. This world is yet another veil for those who are not in it. Those on the outside must see the pain, the grief, yet must also see the things we don't see, which makes them want to come here.

I have discovered that certain areas of my world I do have a little access to, only a small few, areas that I often astral project to and often used for a specific purpose. One in particular, one that I have written a blog about called "the pools of Avalon". The results manifest quite well in this reality.

It just dawned on me, that when I was younger, there was no veil, no seperation between one world or the other. I used not have to meditate, it just "was", but now I have to concentrate, think about it. It's still easy to go from one to the other, and maybe that is why they call to me, because I can still hear them. Maybe they call to me before it is to late.

When I started researching the paranormal and my mediumship, I realized that one of my biggest fears was that I was crazy for seeing, feeling and living in a world that noone else could see or experience. This place is my light and when I walked away,I lost my knowing, I lost my faith in it, it became so dark and I became lost. These small glimpse of knowing, and hearing the call, and remembering this sacred place, I can't turn away from it. I'm beginning to understand now how I have gotten where I am now. So tonight and for several more nights, I will take some time to rediscover my home, taking time to remember where I came from. I will blog more on this. But thank you for reading :)

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Conversations with Dead People - 1


By Angel, 2014-05-21

Eva's Story


Sometimes life takes us in directions that we would normally have gone ourselves. Sometimes it's fate, sometimes it's just the laws of nature, and sometimes it's unexplainable. The veil between the dead and the living are thinning as we near closer to Samhain. I know this is why the female has come to me. I can hear them more clearly right now, though they don't feel lost, simply needing to be heard, the exsistance recognized. When noone speaks to you or ignores you, slowly you begin to disappear, the soul just fades away.

I have been asking for signs for my natural life, the earthly realm, yet most of the signs point back to the spiritual and what I am called to do. Below are the cards I am pulling for today. I have no particular question or direction to go, I know my souls calls out what it is I desire to know and know I will be answered accordingly.

Hmm, I see a small room and a piano as I listen to my music. I'm not channeling my own memories but that of someone else. It feels peaceful, calm, like a release of the soul. She used to play piano. I can see her, young, content, sadness mixed with happiness. She walks the veil that separates the two. So easily to fall to one side or the other. But at the moment, the veil almost disappears and all are one. I am drawn to what it is that made her lost and I hear "isolation".
"It's not a full life, it's a fulfilling one that matters. You can fill it up with the riches, the finest things in the world, you can be surrounded by a million people and still be all alone. In my world I am free, but the cost is high. You desire what I desired and it brought me here, the path I walk now. I walked in my world and as the sun went down it got dark. The darker it got, the further I walked. The further I walked, the more lost I became. Soon my sanctuary became my hell and the darkness consumed me. Nothing bad happened, some call it a flaw in the soul. I wanted for nothing on that physical realm, yet I had nothing. My soul longed to be free and by seeking that freedom I became chained, bound by a reality that others could not see. I walked willingly, happily, but then the darkness came. I didn't understand where it came from. Out of nowhere it came. I searched for the moon, but can find no light. I searched for the day but dawn never arrived. Now I weep every day. I desired to be alone and found loneliness. I was loved and I loved back, with all my heart, yet darkness still came. I don't understand this, and I know you seek the same answers as I. You walk the veil between realities, as did I, how did this happen? How does a soul filled with so much light become so lost? " the spirit asks.
I don't know, is all I can say. All I can say is the somewhere along the way the dreams died and the world that was created disappeared. Close your eyes and listen. Can you hear the music? You did not see the music, your heard it and felt it. You became one with it. It wasn't something that came from this world, it is something that came from within. It wasn't the reality that you created in your world that made you become lost, it was when the music changed is when your reality changed. Think back to when the music changed, for the music is a reflection of your soul.
I can see her closing her eyes. "
It became slower, sadder. I lost my mother and then my husband. Soon my children began to leave, moved away and I was all alone. All I had left was my music. A got arthritis and I wasn't able to play. My heart was so heavy, it hurt to play because it reminded me of the happy times. I would Christmas songs during the holidays and everyone would gather around the piano and we would sing together. This was the happiest times of my life. But when everyone left, my soul began to die and all I had left was my music, but it wasn't the same. I tried to play but it wouldn't come out the same. I just wanted to die. Then one day, something changed. Charlie came to visit me in my sleep. He said I was my most beautiful when I played for him. I radiated, I glowed which made me want to play more. I woke up with a new outlook, like my soul was revived. So I got up, sat up straight on my bench, ready to play . I held my fingers up and curled them and they began to hurt. But nothing was going to stop me, so through the pain, i played, and it sounded like a child banging on the keys for the first time. For a child, it is music to a mothers ears, for a someone who has played all their life, it was loud, annoying, clatter. And I sat there, and my heart sank. I couldn't do it. Charlie wanted so bad for me to play and I could still feel him there waiting, and then this happened. Charlie left that day and never came back and I know it's my fault. I spent the rest of my time just sitting in my chair. Things began to get dark. I went to sleep one night and I have been here since. All he asked for was one song. Just one song and I couldn't do it and he left and I haven't felt him since. And it's all because I failed him."

Close your eyes, I say. Can you hear the music?

No. It's no use, the music is gone.

I close my eyes and hear the music the song is playing. I allow the music to fill me. Listen closely I tell her. Can you hear it now?

I can hear it, it's almost hypnotizing. Where is it coming from?

"Follow it" I tell her.

"Things are getting lighter. This is the place I last saw. The sun rising from behind the mountain. The meadow. The music is getting louder. Is that Charlie? That man ahead, is that my Charlie?"

I can see them running towards each other. They embrace and disappear.

wow! I remembering for a short moment, which I do alot is a feeling of this being unreal. But I pulled an Angel Card and got the Victory card. I also feel a sense of lightness. I can also feel "heaven", I can feel that light energy, I feel stregnth, power, love. It's a pretty amazing feeling. So why do souls get lost? I think it's because for whatever they are going through, they won't allow their souls to be free enough to let go. When desire becomes stronger then our current emotion, that is when things begin to change.

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Eva's Story (Spirit Crossing)


By Angel, 2013-10-21

Sometimes life takes us in directions that we would normally have gone ourselves. Sometimes it's fate, sometimes it's just the laws of nature, and sometimes it's unexplainable. The veil between the dead and the living are thinning as we near closer to Samhain. I know this is why the female has come to me. I can hear them more clearly right now, though they don't feel lost, simply needing to be heard, the exsistance recognized. When noone speaks to you or ignores you, slowly you begin to disappear, the soul just fades away.

I have been asking for signs for my natural life, the earthly realm, yet most of the signs point back to the spiritual and what I am called to do. Below are the cards I am pulling for today. I have no particular question or direction to go, I know my souls calls out what it is I desire to know and know I will be answered accordingly.

Hmm, I see a small room and a piano as I listen to my music. I'm not channeling my own memories but that of someone else. It feels peaceful, calm, like a release of the soul. She used to play piano. I can see her, young, content, sadness mixed with happiness. She walks the veil that separates the two. So easily to fall to one side or the other. But at the moment, the veil almost disappears and all are one. I am drawn to what it is that made her lost and I hear "isolation".

"It's not a full life, it's a fulfilling one that matters. You can fill it up with the riches, the finest things in the world, you can be surrounded by a million people and still be all alone. In my world I am free, but the cost is high. You desire what I desired and it brought me here, the path I walk now. I walked in my world and as the sun went down it got dark. The darker it got, the further I walked. The further I walked, the more lost I became. Soon my sanctuary became my hell and the darkness consumed me. Nothing bad happened, some call it a flaw in the soul. I wanted for nothing on that physical realm, yet I had nothing. My soul longed to be free and by seeking that freedom I became chained, bound by a reality that others could not see. I walked willingly, happily, but then the darkness came. I didn't understand where it came from. Out of nowhere it came. I searched for the moon, but can find no light. I searched for the day but dawn never arrived. Now I weep every day. I desired to be alone and found loneliness. I was loved and I loved back, with all my heart, yet darkness still came. I don't understand this, and I know you seek the same answers as I. You walk the veil between realities, as did I, how did this happen? How does a soul filled with so much light become so lost? " the spirit asks.

I don't know, is all I can say. All I can say is the somewhere along the way the dreams died and the world that was created disappeared. Close your eyes and listen. Can you hear the music? You did not see the music, your heard it and felt it. You became one with it. It wasn't something that came from this world, it is something that came from within. It wasn't the reality that you created in your world that made you become lost, it was when the music changed is when your reality changed. Think back to when the music changed, for the music is a reflection of your soul.

I can see her closing her eyes. "

It became slower, sadder. I lost my mother and then my husband. Soon my children began to leave, moved away and I was all alone. All I had left was my music. A got arthritis and I wasn't able to play. My heart was so heavy, it hurt to play because it reminded me of the happy times. I would Christmas songs during the holidays and everyone would gather around the piano and we would sing together. This was the happiest times of my life. But when everyone left, my soul began to die and all I had left was my music, but it wasn't the same. I tried to play but it wouldn't come out the same. I just wanted to die. Then one day, something changed. Charlie came to visit me in my sleep. He said I was my most beautiful when I played for him. I radiated, I glowed which made me want to play more. I woke up with a new outlook, like my soul was revived. So I got up, sat up straight on my bench, ready to play . I held my fingers up and curled them and they began to hurt. But nothing was going to stop me, so through the pain, i played, and it sounded like a child banging on the keys for the first time. For a child, it is music to a mothers ears, for a someone who has played all their life, it was loud, annoying, clatter. And I sat there, and my heart sank. I couldn't do it. Charlie wanted so bad for me to play and I could still feel him there waiting, and then this happened. Charlie left that day and never came back and I know it's my fault. I spent the rest of my time just sitting in my chair. Things began to get dark. I went to sleep one night and I have been here since. All he asked for was one song. Just one song and I couldn't do it and he left and I haven't felt him since. And it's all because I failed him."

Close your eyes, I say. Can you hear the music?

No. It's no use, the music is gone.

I close my eyes and hear the music the song is playing. I allow the music to fill me. Listen closely I tell her. Can you hear it now?

I can hear it, it's almost hypnotizing. Where is it coming from?

"Follow it" I tell her.

"Things are getting lighter. This is the place I last saw. The sun rising from behind the mountain. The meadow. The music is getting louder. Is that Charlie? That man ahead, is that my Charlie?"

I can see them running towards each other. They embrace and disappear.

wow! I remembering for a short moment, which I do alot is a feeling of this being unreal. But I pulled an Angel Card and got the Victory card. I also feel a sense of lightness. I can also feel "heaven", I can feel that light energy, I feel stregnth, power, love. It's a pretty amazing feeling. So why do souls get lost? I think it's because for whatever they are going through, they won't allow their souls to be free enough to let go. When desire becomes stronger then our current emotion, that is when things begin to change.

This wasn't what I expected for a blog, but then again, it usually never is. This is my world, the world of a Medium.

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Haunted past creates new change


By Angel, 2013-09-06

I woke up to a surprise this morning and not exactly a welcomed one. I opened my e-mail this morning and saw a friend request for facebook from mu oldest's child's biological father. I have to admit, I was floored. My on earth is he contacting me after 23 years? I was young and he was older, but I had no idea how older until after we broke up. It was a very toxic relationship and he was very abusive and insanely jealous. That I why I left him six moths after my child was born. I've never been one to hate someone but I hated him. I was only seventeen. You would think that after all these years I would find some type of resolution, but when I walked away I left that life behind and never really looked back.

I know I'm going through a state of transition. I saw much of it but never saw this one coming. I didn't accept his friend request but I did write him back and asked what he wanted. There was a small part of me that actually felt a little guilty for being rude, but yet, I could write a book about the horrors of that relationship and many would ask why I was so kind. I have let go of alot of things but there is something in me that won't let this go. Forgiveness is not an option. It wasn't even the crimes he commited against me, but what he did to my daughter. My daughter is transgendered so for those of you who knew my child as my son, that is why I refer to her as my daughter now :) It was a miracle that my daughter was even born. She should have died in the womb as this is what he attempted to do. I can't forgive that. 3 times he tried and three times he failed.

So why now? Why send me a "friend" request knowing what he did and how I would react? It's almost emotional suicide. Maybe that is the point. There are plenty of ex's he has that could do and not think twice about it. So why me? Why now? In the core of my depths I know why. It's almost cruel that the universe would make me do this, though I know that the intentions are of a higher reason. But there are so many healers on this planet that could heal him with ease. He hasn't given me a reason yet on why he has contacted me but I felt a strong sense of redemption on his part. My husband say's the people change. I know they do, but the question is, do I care? The ex in me doesn't, but the Mystic in me sees this completely different.

I have been given the responsibility of caring for the lost souls. I always thought they were the lost souls that were in spirit, but I can feel that he is lost as well, and the Mystic in me feels the need to help him. Not to be actively involved but to help him seek closure in this. But the human in me wants justice served.

I have no doubt that I am being shown that I can't pick and choose who the universe sends to me. It's my choice to say yes or no, sure, but the Mystic in me can't say no because in that role I see the greater picture and the loss of a soul is the greatest loss to ever happen. I used to think that if I missed one they would just find another medium, but I realized because each person is so unique that our gifts are also so unique and I have something that noone else has. Another person has something that I don't have so we all brought together by the needs and maybe what he needs, noone else can give him. I'm being forced to feel him, to feel his worthlessness that he feels. The human feels that this is justice for what he has done to me and others. This is his cross to bare. But the Mystic feels that noone should ever have to feel that way. The Mystic knows this is hell and the beginning stages of the forgotten spirits. I feel his rejection by almost everyone. Though he may have brought this on himself, he is like a child soul. Barely born into this world. There is a huge part of myself that won't allow me to cause further harm.

It shows how much I have grown spiritually, that's for sure. Maybe I needed to see that to. I don't feel the need to help change him, like council or whatever, but I do feel the need to not cause further harm to him. I can't within the depths of my soul forgive him, I can't, but I can handle this in a way that will not cause further harm to any of us. I know the Divine is behind this and I know partly why.

I don't know where this path will lead to, but I do know that this is a crossroads and how I handle it will make it positive or negative.

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Changes


By Angel, 2013-08-30

I had a couple of past life readings today that answered some questions of my past, and was great, but it also lead me down to thinking about my future. I went back to my newest blogger account that I started back in June and it was interesting because I blogged about the stir within. To go back to my roots and start with my basic teachings, more meditation and just connection. I was in dire need of change and change came. Wasn't really sure it was the change I was looking for but it was a journey that made me realize that it's time I take a seriously good look at my life and what it is I truly desire.

Change started in July came and our landlord gave us notice. He had some personal problems and he and his family had to move back into their old house which was the house we were living in. Money was extremely tight and we didn't have the money to move, but the universe always supplies. Out of nowhere my oldest got a check and gave us most of it to move. My husband started a 6 week intensive program and they were so good to him. It was literally a life changing event that he really needed. Then August came and it was time for him to cut down on his meds. The withdrawals were really bad. School started a week before he finished the program and we still needed a place to move. Within a week I lost my job and we had no prospects for a home, school just started and life was hell. I cast a spell and said a prayer and later that week they brought me back to my job. The next week we applied for a rental and got it. We moved yesterday and now we are in our new home. During the time I lost my job it was like a blank canvass. I had a couple of interviews but I had also decided to go back on Oranum and do readings. I was worried because I felt so disconnected and then out of nowhere, I started doing readings here and in the midst of the most stress, I was so connected. My job called me to come back and I took it because even though this is another change I need, I'm felt like I had to go back for now. But I realized that this isn't what I want to do. I want to do readings, I want to help people and I know I am destined for more.

When I had my readings today, I realized again that it's time to make a choice. I know I will never be able to control fate, but it is time to take the reigns of my destined path and actually do something with it. And that feeling came back. When I started doing those readings it woke up something deep within my soul and for the first time in a long time, I feel like I can really do this. The change I am seeking isn't just external but internal. This chapter in my life is finally coming to close and it's time to start transitioning into what I am destined to do. I'm bound by my comfort zone and my fear yet that stir is calling me to soar. To fly. I didn;t think I could do it before but when I lost my job I realized something, I realized that not even my job is secure. They can let me go whenever they want and for any reason. I was taken out of my comfort zone so I would realize that nothing is ever set in stone. Not even the most secure job is secure, so why not do what I want to do? If my last excuse was security, then that just got ripped away.

I had to take a good hard look at not only my career but who I am and the type of person I want to be. Who I'm destined to be. Now that we have moved, it's time for me to start really working towards this. I don't feel safe and secure anymore and I'm not supposed to because if I did, then I wouldn't be where I am at now. I asked for change and our world was turned up-side down but I have no doubt this will change our lives and I honestly feel fate is pushing me on to me destined path.

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Spirit Crossing 2/13/2012


By Angel, 2012-03-05

  • Tonight I was asked to cross over spirits. I often do it once or twice a month and in my meditation this morning was asked to make it tonight. We have a pretty fool-proof and awsome system going on.

    Looking hindsight, at the first spirit I encountered as a 5 year old, I was already trying to cross over spirits. I remember looking at him and then looking towards heaven, encouraging him to go. That's when he showed me his version of what heaven would be like and all hell broke loose, literally. But that's another story. But I was thinking about that the other night. This is one of my purposes and all of the lessons I have learned from the past has brought me to this point now. My method is very different then most because I did learn from an early age on how dangerous the spirit realm can actually be. After years of panic attacks and physical attacks, I learned some of the most common sense things, and it all boils down to energy. In order to call upon the light, I had to know the light, I had to merge with this light, become one with it. I had to learn what it truly means to be of the light. Even if I am not always that connected, at that very moment, it's essential.

    Through trial and error and watching others do the same thing, I realized that confrontation, with good intentions or not are pure energy. Often when we confront the dark, our fears often turn into anger, domination, a pissing contest if you will. Many people use the authority of the Divine, but love is the key. In order for me to learn to love, I had to first learn to accept what I fear and to shed light upon it, not fight it or supress it. This is often done with the spiritual realm and the veils between light and dark become clouded, confusing and dangerous. Often it is our emotions that are fed upon. When we give this energy to the darker entity, the feed off of it like candy. But when we are so engulfed in the light and our focus is soley on love and help for that person, we shine that light into the dark and the shadows move away. No confrontation, no harrassment and the goal is achieved.

    The method that was actually shown to me by the Divine is actually a very controlled setting because the biggest problem I had was the darker and more malisious entities not wanting to loose those souls. It's like a mixed drink, a little bit of lost, a little bit of more malious eneties, shadows, all of it. And this is when attacks happen most often. I didn't realize my sensativity until I went to that one church where the field was filled with all of them and it felt like a mess, like people asking to be attacked. Now I'm saying this is the only way or the best way, it's just best for me and may help someone else who may have the same problem I did. But basically, the first thing I do is open and secure my circle. I do a cleansing of myself and then I do it for everyone in my house including the animals after securing the home with a very strong protective shield. Once everything is cleansed and secured, I envision a lit path. There are two veils, one to the light and the one they enter through. I keep the veils closed and then cleanse the path and add a strong protective shield around it. I ask the Archangels to come and protect the enterance from anyone who is not ready to cross over or who wasn't guided by the Divine. Then I have more angels protecting the entire path. Some are there to protect, some to help welcome and guide them down the path or to simply minister to them. Once this is set and secured, I open the veil to the light and ask Jesus to stand at the entrance. The path now become flooded with love and light as I continue to balance the flow of energy as well. At this point my energy has merged with the light energy or God's love and light that we are like a gigantic beacon. It is so peaceful that my animals don't even freak out anymore. Once this is set, I tell them that the only one's allowed down this path are the one's ready to cross over. They must stay on the path and are not allowed to veer from it or to bother anyone here. There are some that will say a few word to me, which is great, but these controls are set to protect everyone. So I open the veil on that end and then they come through. At this point most have already released their baggage and are simply ready. There are usually a few who are ready but fearthey may not be worthy or feel that Jesus would not forgive them. This happend to me twice tonoght. I told them if they have forgiven themselves, then Jesus will also forgive them. Some were even pets. I tell them that this path is protected and they are welcome to come through to go to the light. I have had a couple who have changed their minds and went back. But I know that when they are ready, they will go at their own time. The Angels always tell me when to close the veil on the other side and so I do.I place a lock and the door is sealed shut. Then they will continue through until they cross over.

    Tonight was purely amazing. There were so many of them. I watched as loved one's already crossed over met them on the path and guided them through. One was a homeless man and his dog came and met him on the path. That was it, he had to have been the happiest man on the planet. Sisters and brother, loved one's who died in combat, widows, children, orphans. There was one little boy looking for his mother. I told him his mother wasn't here yet. He said that his mother told him to go to Jesus, so I pointed to where Jesus was standing and the kid took off and ran right up to him. He stood by him the entire time. There were many orphans that came through. They appeared to be from an orphanage. Angels took their hands and guided them to Jesus as well and they all stood next to him at the entrance, hand in hand. And then I saw the most beautiful thing, many of the families that came to meet their loved and walked to the light, started taking the children as if they were adopted parents and families. One here, two, three there, until the children were gone. Those who had noone were now taken in my other people who would love and care for them, bringing them into their soul family. It was so amazing.

    Grampa's message:

    My grandfather arrived. It was actually quite interesting to see him since I wasn't sure he would be ready to cross over. He wanted me to give a message to my family. He wanted to say he was sorry for all the things he did. He grew up in Germany during a time where strict house rules were in force and abuse was a common thing. As he got older and took a wife, started having children, he passed on what he learned. He also became an alcoholic and abused his wife and his kids. Because of the type of man he was, most of the family hated him. His wife also left him after the kids were grown. When he came to me he was so ashamed of what he did. He wasn't sure if he would be forgiven. He was the one I told, "if you can forgive yourself, Jesus will forgive you to". He was so determined to come back and do it right the next time. He wanted to make it up to the family and vowed to come back as a new man. There was so much love in his heart at that moment. I never realized how much he really loved my grandmother until that moment. He said that she was his life and he died inside when she left. I felt that, but there such a determination about his energy and the conviction in his words. A family member of mine will have a baby boy soon. He plans to reincarnate into this child and make up for every thing he did wrong in his life. He wants to be able to show them how much he truly loved each and every one of us. I put a blessing around, one that will be carried for his next incarnation. He told me that the family "curse" was fear. Fear was his demon and that of the family. He told me I was very brave to do this and to free myself of the fear. He told me he loved me very much and then went up to Jesus. Jesus took him in his arms and my grandfather cried so hard. Jesus pointed towards the light and said "Welcome" and my grandfather walked in a new man.There was a bright glow around him. He was finally free.

    Ester's Message:

    Ester is someone I met many years ago at church. Everyone practically worshipped the ground she walked on. She seemed to be so close to Jesus it was like she had her own phone line to God. Practically every woman in my singles group wanted to be just like her. I knew something was off, but I could never pin-point it. At that point, I didn't pay much attention to my intuition. But I saw a pattern in her that I should have picked up but never did. On her 21st birthday, she commited suicide. I felt so guilty, I should have seen it sonner. I later found out that all of the family suffered with severe depression and abuse while growing up. She had come to me a few months ago. She started walking down the path and then disappeared. I didn't think she crossed over. I knew how tortured she was and it saddened me that she was so close but changed her mind. She came again tonight. She also asked if there was room for forgiveness, to me, to her family, to Jesus. She knew the people she hurt but explained that she was trapped in her own self misery that she couldn't love anyone, least of all herself. All she wanted was to be free and this is why she did it. However, it took her 16 years to work through the guilt and the pain. Mostly the guilt of what she had done. God had given her life and yet she took it away. She didn't want the life that was given. Now Jesus was standing before her and she wasn't sure if he would accept her apology. I told her that we all forgived her and to forgive me as well. Her message is now that she had found love, she is able to love all of those she left behind in a way that she couldn't before. She wanted everyone to know that she is now happy, the happiest she had ever been and has vowed to come and guide everyone, including myself. I told her I could use all the advice I could get. She kissed me on the left cheek and went towards Jesus. He had his arms open and like a small child she literally jumped right into the. Tears of joy ran down her face. She took his hand and looked at me one last time. Her smile was so radient.

    She was the last.

    I closed the veil and decided to talk to the Divine myself. Thanked them for their help and for allowing me to be a part of such a wonderful thing. I bowed before them and told them that I was happy and willing to serve however I can. At that moment, I saw the shacles on my arms fall off. And then the shackles on my legs also fell off and disappeared. I was told that this is why my job was so important. This is what it means to be a medium. We are the middle ground of both light and dark, the are the medium, the bridge between light and dark.

    I recleansed the path as well as my house and the family and pets, and drew in more Divine light and energy into the home. Our house is so peaceful right now. Filled with so much love and peace.

    Anyway's this was such an amazing experience I thought I would share it. Thank you for reading. Blessed Be.


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I Got Robbed :(


By Angel, 2011-11-11

ok, so today is the 11=11=11, the day of spiritual enlightenment where the vortexes open up and releasing enlightenment to all the children of the divine. But today, I felt NOTHING! I wasn't happy or sad, angry or happy, just kind of "just here". Considering I am only a couple of hours from the vortex's in sedona, which was probably packed, you think I would have gotten something,lol. I don't know, today was actually quite uneventful, but then again, in my household, that is a good thing. The good part about today is that I haven't had any spiritual activity either.

Hmmm, maybe that is my gift from the universe.. a day off from the paranormal :) If that's the case, I'll take it! lol.

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